Ups & Downs.

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Mama, maybe you'll never know.
But your daughter is in pain.

Mama, I'm standing right
in front of you.
All you see is this strong figure,
But behind it, there's fragile little jane who need to be saved.

Mama. It's hard to breathe.

You give me medicines and tell me it's gonna be okay.
But medicines won't heal me,
it's about what's shoking me and never letting me be okay.

Mama, my tears are on the edge.
But it's out of my comfort zone,
So I start crying, while praying.
Just between me and God.
I wanna tell you I'm trying.

Mama, trust me.
I try to explain but I don't know how to put these feelings into words.

You always think that I hate my life,
But it's my life who hates me.
You think I have a lot of friends who cares, and a lot to share.
But sadness, depression and anxiety is all I have.

You don't know what they did
to your daughter.
Sometimes I want to scream and let you know all about it, but it just doesn't happen.

Mama, I'm living with pain,
But I never complain.
I'm breathing something heavy,
And doesn't look like oxygen at all.

Mama, you don't wanna lose me.
But the world will be the same without me.

( literrally was in tears while writing that)