That's How It Was ║ Leon Goretzka

What are you doing?

- What am I going for? -

- For what? Mafer, it's my birthday -

-But surely he's going to go and I don't want to see him -

- Mafer, both are my friends, I love you both ... -

-And you know him almost from childhood and my almost half a year and that's why I will not put you between the sword and the wall - I said

-Mafer, do it for me - said Karl

Then we crossed looks and I couldn't do that

-Ok Karl, you got your way -

-Come here baby - he said and hugged me.

I went to Karl's party, I was a bit paranoid.

-I feel uncomfortable - I said to Rafa

-You stay quiet Mafer - she said in my ear

-All people look at me weird - I said

-Of course not, nobody is watching you - Max told me

Everything was calm, little by little I felt confident. Max, Karl and other guys took me out to dance, then I went to the kitchen for a beer, then I saw Leon. The stomach began to stir. I recharged myself at the bar, I felt nervous and desperate. I felt his gaze "Do I flip and see him?" I mentally asked myself, I resisted for a few moments, but instinct made a bad move. I turned and saw that he was staring at me, I looked at him for a couple of seconds and all he told me with his eyes was regret and guilt. I felt horrible to see him and I turned around again, I knew that if I kept looking at him I would go straight to him to hug him and tell how much I loved him. I couldn't do it anymore. Then I went to the balcony with my beer, sat on the floor in a corner, opened my shoulder bag, took out a cigarette and then lit it. Feeling the smoke in my throat, inhaling it ... it made me feel good.

-I hate Karl for making me come - I said in a low voice

I kept looking at nothing, thought over and over again in Leon.

- What are you doing? -

Upon hearing his beautiful voice I bit my lip and took a drink of the beer. I didn't look at him, then he came up to me, leaned over and took my cigarette and stepped on it. I didn't say anything, I just took another one out of the bag and turned it on again.

-Mafer - he raised his voice

He took my cigar again and put it out

- What you need? - I said in a bad mood

- How are you? - he asked

-Fine -

-I don't like you to smoke - he said

I looked at him incredulously

- Really, you tell me that? -

-It hurts you - said

- More than what you've done to me? - I said getting up, then I looked at those beautiful eyes - I doubt it - I said with arrogance and then leave

-Mafer - he said taking my arm

-I don't care about anything you say - I said

We looked at each other for a few seconds, Leon took me by the other arm and in an impulse he wanted to kiss me, but I stepped back in time.

-Leave me alone - I said

I let go of his grip and went back to the house and reached to the sofa with Rafa.

"- Are you busy? -

-No, what happens? -

- Can you come for me? -

-Of course -

-Thanks Francisco - "

-Is everything ok? - Max asked

-Yes güero (blondie in spanish) - I answered

-Hey, I know it doesn't concern me, but ... -

-If it's something about Leon, believe me I don't care, Max, I know you're his best friend and you want us to fix this, but, güero also put yourself in my place, I feel terrible -

-I understand, forgive me - said gently squeezing my cheek

-You take advantage of me because I love you - I said

-Obviously - replied

Leon talked to Karl and I was with Larissa talking when I saw Mathea enter to the place.

-No mames! - I said in Spanish (I can't believe)

- What happens? - Larissa asked and looked towards me

Karl saw her and went towards her, they spoke for a moment and then Leon came over. The thing tensed because Karl raised his voice.

-Let see what happens - said

- What's going on? - Rafa asked

-I do not know -

- I'm not going to leave! - Mathea shouted

Then we all turned to see and even stopped the music

-Mathea, please - said Leon

-Babe, I'm not leaving, Karl, let me stay here - she said

Then I got up and went to the door without them noticing.

- Mafer! -

The blood froze. I turned around and it was Francisco who called me. Then the glances went to me, even Mathea's.

- You are not welcome here - Karl said

-Don't worry, Karl, I'm leaving , I just come for my girlfriend - said Francisco

-She's not your girlfriend - said Leon

- What do you know ?- said Francisco arrogant

- Oh please! Who do you want to cheat? - Leon said approaching Francisco with the same arrogance

- Nobody, I don't cheat and less a girl like Mafer - Francisco said approaching even more

Both were approaching each other in such a way that gave the impression of fighting, so the was when I entered between them to separate.

- Enough - I said - Let's go Francisco

-Yes, go now - said Mathea

- What the heck with you? Estúpida - I said in Spanish (stupid)

-I don't know why you were with him, Mafer, this bastard doesn't have balls - Francisco said in Spanish

- Take it easy, friend, it's enough - said Franco di Santo in Spanish

Francisco took me by the hand and we left.

-Forgive me Karl - I said before leaving