5SOS Preferences

Shut Me Out (Calum)

his pov

“Babe” I call softly turning the lights on in the dark room. I sigh as a get the expected response, which is nothing. “I brought you a few things”. No response. I sit the bag on the dresser. I then change into some pajama pants before turning the light back out, making the room pitch black and getting in the bed. I pull the covers off her as I get in the bed, getting comfortable next to her and pulling the covers back over us. “How was your day” I ask knowing I’m not gonna get a response. “Wanna hear about my day?” I say and begin telling her, trying to muster up a laugh every once in a while. I sigh before turning to face her back. “Please don’t shut me out” I sigh closing my eyes try and get some sleep, despite the fact that it’s 7:30pm.

I turn slightly and sit up when I don’t feel her in the bed anymore. I sit up yawning and whipping my eyes to the clock. It’s 1 in the morning. I rub my eyes and stretch before looking for my girlfriend. I’m worried because this is the first time she’s moved in almost two weeks. “(Y/N)” I call out receiving no reply. I walk out and hear a noise in the bathroom. I turn the knob to find its not locked and find her. She’s sitting on the floor of the shower in her undergarments crying her eyes out. “Baby” I coo stepping in an sitting next to her, not minding that my clothes are now getting wet as well. All she does is look at me and cry “She’s gone Cal” and my heart breaks at the tone. “She’s gone and she’s not coming back, and it’s all my fault.” she sobs and my heart breaks even more. I can’t believe she thinks this is her fault. “Don’t say that. It’s not your fault. It’s that idiot drunk driver’s fault. Please don’t blame yourself” I plea holding my broken girlfriend in my arms. We sit there for a while in silence until the water starts to turn cold. I’m not complaining because this is the first time she’s moved or even cried since the accident. “I’m sorry” I hear her mutter from her spot on my shoulder.” “For shutting you out” she tells me looking into my eyes. I can still see the obvious pain but there’s a spark of hope now evident. “How about we change I go make us some sandwiches and we can talk yeah?” I offer surprised and relived she she nods in agreement. “I love you” I tell her giving her a quick kiss.

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I head back up the stairs and peek in the room to find you looking through the bag I brought earlier. “Why did you bring all these art supplies?” you ask noticing me in the doorway. “Well I figured if you weren’t going to talk to me then maybe you could write or draw to me you know.” I shrug casually before handing her a plate with a sandwich and grapes. “I know how you like grapes and I made you your favorite sandwich” I say as I sit next to her with a sandwich as well. “Again I’m sorry” she tells me and I know she’s referring to her former zombie like state. I ignore it until we’re done eating and back in bed with the lights off. “Why though. Why did you shut me out (Y/N). I couldve helped make this easier, but you never even gave me the chance” I say softly. “I don’t know to be honest.” “Today was the first time youd moved and or showed any emotion in two weeks. I was so fucking worried about you baby, it wasn’t healthy and I just didnt know what to do” I wince after hearing my own voice crack. “I guess I was trying to be strong.” you mumble and I’m confused. “For who?” 
“Myself I guess. I mean I felt that if i’d let myself cry that I’d realize that she was actually gone and not coming back. That it was goodbye” Grabbing your hand I press my lips softly to the skin.“It’s okay to cry (Y/N). It’s okay to break down. It only means your human, so why be afraid.”

" I don’t know. It’s hard to explain. Can you do me a favor?"

"Anything"

"Can you take me to the cemetery tomorrow. So I can at least get a proper goodbye. I wanna start new. Live my life in happiness and in honor of the both of us. You know how she always wanted to own her own boutique. I was thinking I’d start one and use the name she always had planned." you ask finding my eyes even in the dark.

"Of course, but don’t think of it as goodbye. Just see you later. And that sounds amazing and I know she’d be proud" I tell her kissing her forehead.

"Alright now let’s go to sleep. When we wake up it’ll be the start of something new.

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~your pov~
“Hey (Y/F/N). I’m sorry I didn’t come to your funeral, I just couldn’t bring myself to accept the fact that you’re gone. I miss you and I’ll always miss you. You were more than a best friend. I thought of you as a sister.” I take a deep breath as tears fall down. I feel Calum’s hand rubbing circles on mine. I gave him a look that said thank you. “Remember when we met. We were 5 years old. You moved into the house next door to me. You had been in there for about two weeks, and I had watched you through my window for those two weeks until I came to talk to you. Stalker much” I laugh slightly, wipping tears out of my face. I spend the next two hours talking and telling stories, Calum not once complaining, only talking with me. It’s started to drizzle. “Well (Y/F/N) I’m gonna have to go. It’s started to rain, but I’ll come back soon okay. I love you (Y/F/N) you are and forever will be my best friend.”

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I literally wrote this back in april 2013 when i used to do a different kind of fanfic writing on youtube. I was going through my old writings anyways and found this one which was semi decent. so i edited it, changed the names and made it to a calum imagine (since im not gonna post the other one i wrote last week and i promised it) the name has nothing to do with the imagine but whatever i needed a name lmao

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