(C)amomile (studxstud)

Chap 18: J&J.

Jay's POV

Maaaaaaaaaaan, FUCK THIS SHIT!!

I'm this close to asking God to let me go to sleep and not wake the fuck up tomorrow. This bitch was driving me nuts, I literally have a bald spot from pulling on my dreads and I love them so much ever since Cam convinced me to actually lock my hair to remind me of Cris.

"Bitch, for the last fucking time I wanna go back home. MY FLIGHT IS THIS WEEK!!" I shouted.

I've been stuck here for a whole ass week already and it's now going into another week. I watched with tears running down my face begging Shane to take me with her when she was taking Cam and Pedro but she said Tye never bargained for me. I knew that motherfucker had something 'gainst me. I wasn't fucking Cam for CHRIST SAKE! I've kept my distance all this time.

"And I'm going to say this one last time too, you aren't going back." Juliette said from beside me.

I've attacked her so many times and all she does is stand and allow me to swing on her. It was aggravating that she wasn't fighting back.

"If you love me why are you keeping me captive?" I asked.

"That's exactly why I'm keeping you here because I love you," She said.

"You're a fucking lunatic you know that?" I spat at her.

"Then you shouldn't have fucking left me in the first place babe," she said softly.

"Crazy ass bitch," I went over to her and draped her up.

"Only because I love you Jayden, now sit the fuck down and shut the fuck up. You ain't going nowhere." She pulled me into the couch beside her.

"Mi fucking hate this, mi fucking hate you, mi fucking hate this fucking island, mi just wah go home.." I started bawling and throwing my hands about.

"Bumbuhraasclaaat mi wah gah me fucking yaad, bumbuhclaat man." My face was starting to hurt from crying this hard as it had done the many times I've cried since being here.

"A it this to bloodclaat," I cried out grabbing my dreads.

"Jah?? If you can hear me, me just wah know weh mi do fe deserve this doe?? Mi a just one likkle trying yute enuh Jah. Mi nuh mix up in a all a them supm ya yet still me deh right yasso. Mi nuh deserve this.." I had officially lost it, I was going crazy and Juliette made sure of it.

"Jah!? If a because me a sadamite why bad things a happen to me then me will stop this nonsense, if it mean say this mad gyal leave me alone. Me sorry, me know you did say Adam and Eve not Eve and Grace. Me deeven like this sadamite gyal behind a me Jah." I continued crying.

"A my fault, the likkle sex weh me gi har mad har. The likkle unholy sex God, I rebuke it." I was sure I was ugly bawling now.

I walked over to the small bathroom and caught water in the small bowl that was there. I walked back over to her and threw the water on her shouting.

"I REBUKE YOU SATAN," I shouted.

"CLEANSE THIS UNHOLY SPIRIT," I shouted again.

"Jay, you need to calm down. I've listened to enough of your bullshit." Juliette said.

"Bullshit? Yuh calling the Lord bullshit." I threw the bowl at her.

"Forgive her father, for she knows not what she have done." I said.

"Do you want me to knock you out again?" She asked me.

"Use enough fe kill me, please." I said grabbing her shirt.