Affection || Shaudrey

Twenty-Four: Cameron

TW: Mention of depression. 

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Shelby sat up slightly, and brought Audrey onto her lap, knowing that it was something that never failed to calm her down. Her arms wrapped around the woman's waist as she pulled her closer, holding her as close as possible as she started to gently rock her. "You won't," she said softly. "You won't ever lose me, okay? If... if you don't want a kid then we won't have one... be-because I-I don't want to lose y-you either."

Audrey let her tears fall freely, not wanting to hide her fear anymore; She instantly got onto Shelby's lap, hugging her closely, burying her face into her lover's neck. "N-no... we can't." She whimpered. "I could n-never do t-that... I can't, being a m-mother is n-not something I can d-deny to you and me... I don't even k-know what I want f-for sure yet".

"Okay," Shelby nodded softly, feeling her heart break over her lover's words. "I need you to take a deep breath, and try and calm down, baby. Please. Can you do that for me?" she asked softly, trying to remain calm herself. She held Audrey close with one hand while she brought the other one up to her lover's face to wipe her tears.

Audrey shook her head as her tears came stronger; She hadn't seen it coming, the fear coming so strongly, the tears coming so harsh, and the unstoppable hurt on her chest for thinking about losing her lover. The actress felt herself starting to shake, burying her face even more into her lover's neck, hiccups starting to come, breath hard to catch.

Shelby started to become overwhelmed with worry as she continued to rock her lover gently in her arms. One of her hands settled on her back, rubbing soothing circles over her skin. "Please, Audrey... you need to breath." She said softly, hoping somehow it would work.

Audrey started crying even stronger, loud sobs coming from her, body shaking strongly; The actress started having trouble to breath, loud sounds coming as she tried to catch her breath more and more.

Shelby felt her worry turning to fear. She felt her own tears starting to form again. She didn't know what to say at this point. "Babydoll, c-can you look at me?" she asked softly.

Audrey started to get scared of her reaction; She didn't know what was happening, but she couldn't breathe anymore. Shakily, she let her head pull away from her lover's shoulder, staring with wide brown eyes at blue ones. "I-I-I... I... b-breathe... c-can't..."

Shelby saw the look behind Audrey's eyes, and she had an idea of what was happening, she was having a panic attack. "Look into my eyes. And follow my breathing." She said before taking a deep breath.

Audrey felt her tears coming stronger as her body began to shake more and more; She tried following her lover's moves, but another big, loud sound came, and the actress could barely catch some air, hands being placed against her hurting chest now.

Shelby let out a shaky breath as she tried to keep herself calm. She took Audrey's hands in her own, lacing their fingers together. "Look at me." She said again. "Audrey, I need you to look at me."

With the touch, Audrey locked her eyes with ocean ones; She tried catching another deep breath, succeeding more in this one, being able to let out a considerably longer breath.

Shelby nodded with a small smile. "Good girl. A few more breaths, okay?" she asked before taking a deep breath, trying to get Audrey to follow her breathing pattern.

Audrey felt the corners of her lips raising up a little with Shelby's words; She followed her lover's breathing patterns, feeling the pain in her chest beginning to go away a little.

Shelby smiled as her lover's breath followed her own. She gently caressed Audrey's hands with her own as she started to breathe normally. "Okay, babydoll. Are you okay?" she asked softly.