Affection || Shaudrey

Fifty-Eight: Love You More

TW: Mentions of a past suicide attempt, mentions of forced sex.

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"Of course, sweetheart." John nodded. "Are you sure you're okay?"

"Yes... I'm just t-tired from the day." The actress smiled weakly.

Shelby got up from her lover's lap as she nodded. "Come on, baby." She held out her hand for her lover.

Audrey got up and walked over to her parents, hugging them both tightly. "I love you, guys... I promise I just need to sleep."

"We know, baby." Amélia said softly as they hugged Audrey back.

Gently, the actress pulled away, walking to her lover and taking her hand, starting to walk back to their room after smiling one last time to her parents.

"Thank you both again for dinner," Shelby said before they left the room.

Audrey guided them back upstairs and to their room, closing the door as they entered, taking a deep breath right after.

"Are you okay, gorgeous?" Shelby asked softly.

The actress shook her head as she walked to the bed, plopping down on it and covering her face with her palms.

Shelby quickly went to her lover's side, wrapping her arms around her, holding her close. "It's okay, baby. I promise you, it's okay."

Audrey felt her tears coming strong as she snuggled closer to her lover. Her mind was going back to all the dark places she had been to, the memories of how she felt hit her hard. "I d-didn't mean to k-keep it f-from you... i-it just never o-occurred me to t-tell you."

Shelby held her lover closer, gently rocking her, knowing it might calm her down. "Audrey, it's okay. I promise, babydoll. Please look at me."

Audrey hesitantly stared up at blue eyes, biting her lip to stop her tears from coming more and more.

"Don't beat yourself up over this. Sometimes we don't think to tell people things like this. If you didn't know certain things from my past, I'm not sure they would have been my first thing to talk about at dinner either." Shelby said softly, trying to make things better. She rubbed her lover's back with one hand while the other caressed her cheek again.

Audrey took a deep breath to calm herself down as she heard her lover's words, nodding softly as her hands slowly fell to Shelby's sides, caressing it. "O-okay..." she breathed out. "I just f-feel so scared t-that you'll think t-that I'm k-keeping something."

"I would never," Shelby said softly. "I trust you more than anyone. I know you would never keep anything from me, at least intentionally."

Audrey nodded as she took another deep breath. "That's true... I think t-the whole thing w-with Beatrix caused m-me to be s-so insecure... it also e-explains the nightmare I had today. That you d-didn't come back to m-me at the hospital."

"It makes sense now," Shelby said. "But please don't feel embarrassed or ashamed for feeling these feelings. I want you to tell me what you're feeling rather than hold them in, okay?" she asked softly.

"O-okay," Audrey smiled softly, taking another deep breath. "I'm j-just so f-full of scars and I-I... are you s-sure that's w-w-what you want for you? M-me?"

Shelby furrowed her brows, not fully comprehending her lover's question at first. She cupped her face, staring into her dark hues, lovingly. "Audrey, I love you more than I love anyone, more than I ever thought I knew I could love. Of course. I want you. I only want you. You're the only person for me." She explained.