Secret Love Song: Memories (Zach Herron) ✔ [Completed]

28; i'll be good

I'll Be Good - Jaymes Young 
Nerah: 

I sat in my creative writing class. My professor was talking and the whole class was taking notes, except for me. I couldn't focus on anything. It's been a week since the last time I read anything from Zach's book. If I was being completely honest with myself, I didn't want to read it. Not because I didn't want anything to do with him, but because I was afraid that after reading it, I'd want to go back to him.

I'm happy with where I am and I'm happy with who I'm with. And I don't need Zach to find his way back into my life and completely destroy what I'm happy with. 

I carry the book with me where ever I go because I'm afraid of losing it. After reading the first chapter and being so connected with it, I was afraid to go back to it. All of my life, I only knew that story from my perspective, but after reading Zach's point of view, I'm never going to look at it the same.

I brushed my fingers against the baby pink spine of the journal. My heart ached as I stared at the pictures. I sighed. I looked up to see my professor still teaching and the rest of the students in my class, taking thorough notes. I opened the journal and read the title of the Chocolate Milk War.

He explained everything he felt that day. Including, how he felt after I kissed him on the cheek. It was beautiful, the way he wrote everything. I flipped to the next page and read the top.

That Smile. 

I felt my heart race at the words. Under the title, a picture of me laughing at Zach was glued. I looked back up at the professor before looking back down.

That smile. That beautiful smile. Curse me for falling so in love with the beautiful smile. Those beautiful dimples in her cheeks that tie in her whole look, along with the beautiful small freckles that dot the bridge of her nose and slightly under her eyes.

Her smile, something that she hates. Something that she hides.

But little does she know how in love I am with that smile. The smile that makes my heart pound a thousand times faster and makes my stomach swarm with butterflies. There's no way possible that you could ever not smile when she is. Her smile is just so contagious, so addicting. And because she's able to smile after all of the pain that she's gone through, that she's been put through, I believe in hope. And I believe that things will get better because of that damn smile.

"I swear I'd walk, I'd run, I'd even learn to fly... Just to see you smile."

I sighed and shut the book. The effects that this kid has on my heart are unthinkable.

The bell rang startling me. I sighed and packed up my stuff.

"Ooh, what's this?" Austin asked picking up the book.

"Austin, give it back."

"Tell me what it is." I rolled my eyes. 

Austin Chase, No, he's not a bully. He's just one of the closest things to what I have with the guys back home. So, we tease each other and steal each other's stuff, but we low key love each other.

"No. Give it back."

"I'll think about it," he said as he shoved it in his bag and took off.

"Austin!" I yelled grabbing all of my stuff and chasing after him. 

"Catch me if you can!" He stuck out his tongue and immediately made his way toward the rest of the guys in his group.

"Austin, give it back!" I yelled. "Please!"