My little dolly

Anxiety riddled

Dolly's pov:
After we ate we all headed back to our dorm rooms, turns out miz is just down the hall luckily, but she hasn't met her roommate yet. We wished her luck as me and aquaria started making our room 'homey'. Our definitions of home is different. Mine is more pastel with of course a Russian flag, I had a heart cork board with pictures of me with my family and friends, and I hung beautiful see through pink fabric above my bed. Aquaria's is a bit different. She's more darker with some holographic theme. She has rock posters and Halloween fairy lights, and has a string of Polaroid pictures across her wall of her and her family. She finished with a big pink alien light hanging above the headboard of the bed.

"Wow, we are so different in styles" we both laughed as I laid back before looking at the time.

"Shit it's already 5, how long have we been doing this?" She looked up from her phone at me and shrugged.

"Probably about a good two and a half hours, cause we had to set up our sides and everything else" I made an 'oh' face and grabbed my phone scrolling through social media.

"Hey did you see monet's new pic? I swear she's sponge obsessed at this point" aquaria said showing me the picture on her phone. Sure enough there was monet with a dress made of sponges.

"Oh my god, I didn't think she would take the dress thing seriously" we laughed and after an hour we ordered a pizza and watched Netflix for the rest of the night. Aquaria headed to bed and I stayed up just trying to go to sleep, but it was useless.

I just feel so nervous, I know I shouldn't but I'm scared to sleep. I don't have my mom in the next room to go to and I don't wanna wake up aquaria to complain about this. I paced around the room for a while and looked at the time. 2 in the morning, shit. I laid back down in my bed and got comfortable. I closed my eyes and tried to drift off to sleep, but I kept overthinking. What if someone tried to break in? What if my mom needs me and I'm not there to help? What if my mom falls into a Great Depression without me by her side everyday?? I groaned and opened my eyes.

3 am rolled around and I still couldn't fall asleep. I stared at my phone and contemplated if I wanted to call someone or not. I then made my mind up and picked my phone up biting my nails. Cmon cmon cmon....

"Dolly honey what are you doing up this time of night..." I heard the sleepy tone of my moms voice answer me and I relaxed a little.

"I know this is gonna sound ridiculous but...I-I can't sleep..." I teared up embarrassed, I felt like a small child walking into their moms room after a nightmare.

"Aw babygirl...what do you want me to do to help you go to sleep?" I smiled lightly and laid back in my bed relaxing more hearing my moms voice.

"Can you sing me a song...like you used to..." I could tell she was smiling through the phone after I said that. She agreed and started singing to me. Her voice just soothed me to where I finally fell asleep. Even in my little dream land I faintly heard her say those sweet words I've longed to hear.

"I love you my sweet babygirl...sweet dreams..."

I know it may sound stupid but, she makes me feel so happy and relaxed...if only she could sing to me every night like she used to...