My little dolly

Sing me to sleep

Trixies pov:
"Cmon Trixie you cant hide under the covers forever" I felt katyas hand on my shoulder and lightly shake me.

"No, I look horrible leave me be. I'm not good enough anymore" I popped my hand out and waved her away, and obviously it didn't work.

"Baby your more then good enough, I just wanna see your pretty face again" I lightly poked my eyes out and saw her smile a bit at me.

"There's those gorgeous eyes...lemme see the rest" I sighed in defeat and lifted myself up all the way in shame. I'm almost skin and bones at this point, I'm paler then a dead person I swear, and my hair? My wig got snatched thanks.

"I don't know why you even wanna see me...or let alone be with me..." i pouted lightly playing with my ring. I feel so insecure about myself now since I don't have my gorgeous blonde curls flowing down onto my shoulders. Now I feel like everyone knows what I have now. Yay.

"I wanna see you cause your my wife..and you look absolutely gorgeous...who cares if you don't have hair...your showing that your fighting a battle and still going strong..." she cupped my face in her hands as I blushed softly.

"What would I do without you katya...I love you so much.." I pulled away and coughed hard before pulling myself together and looking back up at her.

"Baby you don't look so good right now...maybe you should rest..." she laid me down on the bed and kissed my head softly rubbing her thumb on my cheek.

"Kat...I really don't want this to be true but...I don't think I'm getting better..I feel so much worse..." I tried to hold back my tears, but one fell and slide down my cheek. Katya wiped it away and sighed sadly.

"Don't say that baby...I'm sure you don't feel good right now cause you took a break from treatment...you'll feel better...and you'll be the strong beautiful Trixie I know.." I smiled and took her hand relaxing into the bed.

"I'm just so scared thinking about it..what if it's too late...I don't wanna leave you..I don't wanna leave Brian and Katie..I don't wanna leave my babygirls side..." I sniffed thinking of dolly all alone by herself, depressed and lonely without me. Holding a photo of me and silently crying. I don't want that to ever happen.

"Then don't give up baby...believe in yourself...I know you don't like the though of leaving us...but use that as motivation..dolly loves you more then anything...and she wants her momma to stay alive to see her get married..and even have grandchildren.." I smiled at the thought of her smiling as she walked down the isle in a gorgeous white gown.

"I wanna see her future...and I will...I promise I will..." Katya squeezed my hand lightly and smiled at me.

"That's the spirit baby...but like I said before...get some rest for today..." she pulled the covers over me and I smiled hugging my favorite blanket.

"I can't sleep though..." I played with the blanket a bit and looked at her slightly pouting.

"Then what will get you to sleep?" She lightly put her forehead against mine and I smiled pulling her close.

"Can you sing me to sleep? I like it when you sing in Russian..." I closed my eyes feeling her kiss my cheek. I soon heard her softly start singing as she rubbed my back soothingly. I sighed happily imagining I was back at home.

We're both in bed after a long night, the kids are asleep and I was really stressed out from the day. Katya laid next to me making sure I was comfortable before turning off the lights. She pulled me close to her and played with my hair and softly singing one of her favorite songs in Russian. I felt my whole body relax as I listened to each word she sang. It was so calming I couldn't help but smile as i went into a deep sleep for the rest of the night.

It was so close to home for me, I dreamt about it. I missed staying at home...it makes me so comfortable and happy. It puts me in my happy place...