My little dolly

The only option

Trixies pov:
I coughed hard and teared up from the pain. I've been weaker then ever before to the point where I actually need a bit of help to sit up. My breathing was getting worse. I admit I'm getting scared that none of this is even working. I swear I have at least two panic attacks a day worrying about what's gonna happen to me.

"Here babe, this is better" Katya handed me a tissue and I sighed coughing in it.

"Yeah so much better" I rolled my eyes as she giggled kissing my cheek. Katya and dolly are the only ones who are keeping me up in the morning. But at this point I was ready to throw in the towel. I just wanted to fall to the floor hold up a white flag and scream 'IM DONE' .

"I feel horrible. End my misery please god damnit" I looked at Katya with I'm over it face.

"Aw baby, do you need some pain meds or something?" She asked as she took my hand before softly kissing it. I sighed sadly and shook my head.

"No...I feel like I just can't do this anymore...this therapy isn't working for me...I give up..." she looked at me devastated and shook her head holding my hand closer to her.

"Trixie baby no..no you can't give up now...there has to be another way...I can't live without you..neither can dolly and you know that.." I nodded sadly slightly rubbing my face.

"If there's another way...then I'll try it..." I smiled lightly as her face lit up and nodded getting up.

"I'll ask if there's another way, I'm sure there is, I just need you in my life..I really do..." she walked out of the room and I couldn't help but smile. I laid back again and played with the ring on my finger. I wish I had all the confidence I had in the start of the treatment and everything. I heard my phone buzz and smiles more seeing dolly texted me.

Babygirl 💗
Hey are you feeling ok? I still feel bad that I can't be there ): .

Trixie 🍯
I'm alright, wish I was better though. And don't worry about it babygirl it'll be better you finish your finals first!

Babygirl 💗
I know but ugh, I just wanna be there and hug you and take care of youuuuu!

I giggled at how cute she was, even if I had a small cold she would always want to take care of me.

Trixie 🍯
You can take care of me after finals, you only have two more days and you'll be finished.

Babygirl 💗
Ugh fine, I have to go but I'll text you when I come back. I love you mommy 🥰🥰🥰

Trixie 🍯
Alright, I love you too babygirl 💋💋💋

I smiled pouting my phone down as Katya walked in smiling. I raised a brow at her as she took my hand again and squealed a bit.

"What? You look very happy and I wanna knowwww" I giggled while she slightly bounced in her chair.

"So there is a way that's more accurate and will make you feel better. They have noticed the treatment isn't really working as well as they though, but the tumor is in a spot where they can easily take it out. If you get the surgery you can feel better.." I bit my lip thinking about it a bit.

"I don't know kat...I'm nervous when it comes to stud like this..how accurate is this?" She kissed my cheek making me relax a bit.

"It's very accurate babe, I promise you.." I looked at her nervously before taking a deep breath and nodding.

"Alright I'll do it...I just wanna end this fight and come back home.." she smiled more and got up again to talk about it all with the doctors. We agreed to do it in a couple days to get me prepped and ready.

After I sat there just nervously playing with the end of my blanket. Katya could tell so she held me close to her.

"Your gonna be ok baby...you'll be knocked out the whole time their doing it and you won't feel a thing...it will hurt a bit afterwards but they'll give you pain meds and everything...and before you know it you'll be out of here and back home all happy.." I smiled at the thought of being back at the house and playing with Brian and Katie. Being there for birthday parties and holidays.

"I'm gonna be ok..this is just my first time doing something like this Katya...that's why I'm really nervous" she nodded understandingly rubbing my back.

"You'll be asleep the whole time...and when you wake up me, dolly, Brian, and Katie will be there...we'll make you nice and comfy...you won't even know your in pain.." I hugged her tight smiling.

"If you say so...I'm trusting you" I took a deep breath and melted under her touch. I just want this all to be over with...