My little dolly

Todays the day

Trixies pov:
I bit my nails shaking lightly as I sat in a different room. Today is when I have my surgery and bitch I'm so damn NERVOUS. Like I'm trusting these people to like knock me out and dig around for the stupid thing that's been making me sick. I don't know if I like people putting their hands in my brain if I'm honest.

"Babe are you cold? Your shaking a lot..." Katya walked in and held me close to her. I hugged her tightly not wanting to let go.

"I'm having second thoughts now take me home right now I don't want to do this..I wanna go home.." I shoved my face in her shoulder. I sniffed holding holding back sobs while tears fell. She rubbed my back soothingly kissing my cheek.

"Hey hey hey...it's gonna be ok...you can go home after all this and be happy...but you have to get this done...it will make you better..." she wiped away my tears while holding my hand tightly.

"I'm so scared...I'm scared something might go wrong...and I-i won't see you guys again..." she looked at me sadly and nodded.

"Don't worry baby...you'll see us right when you wake up..." I hugged her more shaking, I never wanted this moment to end. I just wanted to stay with her and not do this at all. Dolly walked in and smiled lightly sitting on the other side of the bed.

"Aw mom...don't cry please..you know I'll cry if you cry" I looked over at her and saw her eyes getting glassy.

"I'm sorry you have to see me like this honey...I'm so nervous about all this..I just want this all to go well..." I sighed before she hugged me as well. I smiled lightly relaxing under both Katyas and Dolly's touch. I took a deep breath and nodded calming myself more and more.

"Ok I can do this...I can do this...and I really don't want this to be emotional but...if this doesn't go well...I want you both to know you guys are my whole work and universe...and I couldn't never could ask for anything more...I love my Russian beauty and my babygirl...who's been with me since...I love you guys...and if I don't come out ok..then I want you to keep going on without me..don't mourn for me...celebrate the life I had...and how I made both of yours happy...I'll be your guardian angel..and help you till your ready to see me..." I smiled as dolly broke down and started crying hugging me tightly, and Katya wipes away tears sniffing.

"Please d-don't say that mommy...I-I don't want to t-think about that...I-I want y-you to b-be ok...I-I know you will.." I held her close to me stroking her soft blonde hair.

"I'm just saying that if something doesn't go right...I love you guys fine forget that ok?" We all had a big group hug and giggled. Soon we had to pull away as I got prepped more. Before I knew it, it was time for me to go in. I sighed wiping away all my tears. Before I went into the operating room we all had another group hug saying how much we loved each other.

"You made me all nervous now mommy" dolly giggled as she sniffed. I kissed her cheek repeatedly as a couple tears fell.

"I'm sorry baby, I didn't mean to do that" we both giggled and hugged each other staying in comfortable silence. We pulled away and I cupped her face in my hands.

"I love you so much my babygirl..." she smiles hearing those words and put her hands over mine.

"I love you so much mommy..." I pulled my hands away and blew a kiss as I went in. They laid me on the table and I took a deep breath just taking everything in. They soon put the anesthetic mask over my face and told me to breathe in and found backwards.

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Man I'm hungry, why do I have to like not eat before all this?? That's bullshit.

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I wonder if I'll stay in complete darkness or not, I don't like being aloneeee

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Wait how long am I gonna be out for

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I wish I was in more comfy clothes, I hate wearing this stupid gown.

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Will I feel any of this? Wait Katya told me I won't ok I'm good

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Oh I'm getting tired...this stuff really does work

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I don't like the looks of those tools over there...are they using those?!

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I'll just close my eyes...yeahhh

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I didn't realize this stuff was so strong damn..

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I was soon out like a light, and into complete comfortable darkness. Just relaxed and calm. And I hope everything will be ok...

I can't leave everyone now..