FAKE PREGNANCY °[KathNiel] ✓COMPLETE

23. True Meaning

Elqenna

DETERMINED TO FIND OUT what I want to do in life, I allowed Mavvy to take me to places and activities he believed will help me see the career I want to have. Today, we're at a five-star hotel attending a Youtube blogging conference. We actually have been doing this for almost a month because I badly needed this. I need a career. I need to prove to dad that I am not just their adopted daughter who is a brat, whose has direction in life other than the mall. And most especially, I need to be someone worthy for Mavvy.

"Are you okay, Mavvy?"nag-aalalang tanong ko. Kanina pa siya nakatulala. Hindi ko nga siya makausap ng maayos. "Alam mo..." I paused to take his hand. "I understand if you're tired accompanying me to these type of events. I can take it from here. I'll be okay on my own. You can go home, Mav—"

He shut me up with a quick kiss. Alam ba niyang nabibitin ako sa tuwing ginagawa niya 'yon? Sa tuwing hinahalikan niya ako, I would just yearn for more. This sounds really stupid but Mavvy has become like a drug to me. Gusto ko nga lagi ko lang siyang nakikita. Siguro, kung yayayain ako ni Mavvy na magpakasal, hindi ako magdadalawang isip... lalo na't ilang linggo nalang darating na si Innigo.

"Hindi ako pagod. I was just thinking about a surprise for you,"aniya pa. "Sorry for spacing out sometimes."

"Surprise? Why did you tell me then?"pagmamaktol ko.

"Because I know you love surprises and I want to see you act like this. Ang cute mo kapag nagtatampo ka,"tumatawang sagot niya na ikinainis ko.

"I hate you,"malungkot na sambit ko.

He poked my nose.

"And I love you." Nginitian niya ako ng abot-matang ngiti. "Always."

My hearted melted at that again. It does everytime he tells me how precious I am to him.

"Can I leave you here, baby?" We were in the middle of our date. We were just having a late lunch. Manonood pa sana kami ng movie after. "I just need to give mom a hand. Look, she texted,"pagpapaalam ni Mavvy sabay pakita sa'kin ng message ni tita.

"Okay,"labag sa loob na sambit ko.

Ugh. This is not right. Nababaliw na ba ako kay Maverick? My gosh. Please no. Ilang minuto lang mula ng makaalis siya, umalis narin ako sa restaurant at umuwi. Nababadtrip lang ako. I needed distraction before this crazy feelings of mine get ahold of me. Sobrang nababagabag ako sa nararamdaman ko para kay Mavvy.

Baka naman mali na hinayaan ko siyang mahalin ako? Now, I hate myself for thinking like that. Mavvy would be upset to know about me having such thoughts. Paano ba naman kasi... Kahit buong araw kaming magkasama, nami-miss ko siya pagsapit ng gabi. Para bang wala akong gustong gawin sa buhay kundi titigan siya, makita siya. This was just so weird kasi hindi ganito ang normal na ako.

I reassessed my life and I started with my phone. Picture ni Mavvy ang lockscreen ng phone ko. Picture naming dalawa ang nasa wallpaper. Damn! I went to check the messages. Napakagat ako ng labi. Hindi ako nagmumura pero kamuntikan ko ng gawin. Eh paano? Walang ibang laman ang inbox ko maliban sa conversation namin. Dini-delete ko kasi 'yong ibang messages lalo na 'yong galing sa Network at sa NDRRMC.

"This is not right, Qenna. You're making him your world,"I scolded myself. "You need to wake up. Wake up, self."

Determined to change my lockscreen, I tapped my Photos application on the phone to find a different picture. Puro pictures ni Mavvy ang recent photos. Ninanakawan ko siya ng pictures? My gosh. This isn't me. Hindi ko naman ginagawa lahat ng 'to kay Raven dati.

Hays.

I groaned, chastising myself for what I have just been thinking. Ibinagsak ko ang katawan ko sa kama. I can't do this. I can't delete his pictures. They looked so precious anyway.