Diary of A Gay Black Teen (boyxboy)

The Talk

“So what you wanna talk about, please don't say yo brother.” My face expression quickly changed  “No f**k him.” “See I wanted too, but he probably try to beat my a**, and I rather him not use his fist, if you know what I mean.” Chris got a big a** crush on my brother and I really don't see why. “You nasty as h**l and its really not that funny, so can you stop.” “Okay I'm serious, what you wanna talk about? ”  “I had sex.” I didn't know any other way to put it so I blurted that out. “What, When and Where!” I could tell by Chris facial expression, he was shocked and not expecting for me to say that. It's not what you think, it was oral sex. I said even faster to make it seem like I said nothing at all.

“So yo a** still a virgin.” D**n he heard me. “Yeah” “I hope you was getting head.” He said while raising his eyebrow and waiting on a reply. “Not exactly.” “Who was it Tony?” “H**l no.” “Did you even know the dude.” “I mean, I know he one of Trevon's friends.” “You serious right now.” “Dead a**.” “I wish you would of never did that s**t cause first that's yo brother friend, and second that's a nigga you say you barely knew, so he basically took advantage of you.” “No, didn't nobody took advantage of me.” “Don't get mad at me, yo thirsty a** sucked the nigga d**k.” “Im not mad, and I didn't do yo a**like this when you told me you did it.” “I gotta reason to be mad, I was with my ex for three years before I did that, and how long you been knowing him.” I didn't even get to say none before Chris was saying Thought So

“Whatever, it ain't the end of the world, I ain't the only one who sucked a d**k before.” “I'm just saying, this not you, you acting like a thot, so don't get mad at me when I'm just keeping it real. I don't sugar coat nothing and you know that.” I couldn't do nothing but roll my eyes cause I needed a ride home. Chris got up and sat at the computer. “What you say his name was.” “Jay why” “Cause I wanna see who this nigga is.” I watched as she went on Trevon page looking for Jay. Chris scrolled down his page until he came up on a picture tagged to Jay Ben Grindin and some other people. “Which one Jay.” “The one with the dreads.” “Um” “You going on his page.” “This nigga dumb as f**k, you spell been with two e's” Chris clicked on his name and I was shocked.

“See this what I'm talking about, you thought that nigga wanted you, all he want is that head game, dumb fool.” I felt stupid but he didn't have to rub that s**t in my face. I didn't even realize I was crying. What the h**l I'm crying for. I quickly wiped the tears away but they continued to flow. I don't even know him why am I crying. This was real and Chris was right, I was dumb as h**l for this. Chris got up and hugged me while I wiped my eyes unable to control my emotions. “Can you take me home.” I managed to get out after crying. Without saying a word Chris grabbed his mama keys and we walked to the car. The whole ride there was quiet. I opened the door to get out and Chris finally broke the silence.

“Tre, don't let that s**t get to you. You stronger than that and you can do better.” “Bye” I said before closing the door and slowly walked into the house because I knew my mama had some words for me. When I reached the door I just knew I was dreaming. What the h**l was going on, I walked in and Trevon was sitting on the couch. He mean mugged me hard as h**l when I walked pass him. I never hated nobody so much in my life. Teranie and Camry came in the house slamming the door after them. “Who is that, Tre?” My mama yelled. “Yep” Trevon replied. I just starred at his b***h a**, and he gave me the eye, like what you wanna do. Only if I knew were that gun was, he would find out. “If I gotta call yo name one more time, Tre Devin Hayes, I know some.” I ran upstairs and before I even hit the top step I got smacked.

“D**n Ma” “You done lost yo mind?” D**n I said that s**t out loud. She popped my a** in the chest and that s**t hurt so I pushed her and didn't realize it until I saw her on the ground. I ran with the wind while she jumped up chasing after me. I was running as fast as I can and as soon as I thought she wasn't behind me I stopped while still looking back behind. This b***h got in her car and chased me down the block and across the street until the traffic looked like every car had got into a wreck. “You think you can put yo hands on me and it's over.” I wanted to yell back the same thing but I was tired and sweaty, while bent over touching my knees.