Diary of A Gay Black Teen (boyxboy)

All Because Of The Fight!!!!

“Hit me now b***h.” “Mama ain't here, you still want me to beat yo a**.” For some reason I was too confident that she would run outside like she ran down the stairs but this time at better timing. “You lying.” I covered my face. “I ain't gone hit you Ama beat yo a** though.” He unbuckled his belt that he had on while he was sagging. Pick up some and hit his a** with it. My mama words played over and over in my mind. Before he could even hit me. I held my crutch tight and hit his a** upside the head hard as h**l. K.O B***h “D**n nigga, you straight.” One of Trevon’s friends asked. “I'm gone.” Another one said while running off and the rest of his shaky a** friends followed. My sisters walked outside. They always come at the last minute, where they was at when I needed them. “What happened.” Camry asked. “We got the fighting, he may won the first one but I'm winning the rest.” I said knowing I did some. I looked at unconscious Trevon thinking, Yo a** really thought I was gone let you whoop me. Nigga Please! “D**n, he dead.” Teranie asked while bending down to Trevon's side. “Who cares.” “We do, and yo a** should too this blood.” Mya said. “What we gone do?” Kya asked Who gives a f**k is what I wanted to say. 

“Call the police, duhh.” Mya said. “No we not, y'all better take him in the house, he gone wake up, I didn't hit him that hard.” I lied. “and if he don't.” “then he don't.” “If this was you would you want me to just take yo a** in the house.” “No but...” “Okay then, I'm gone call am ambulance.” Mya called an ambulance and he was  carried off in a stretcher and the twins went with him. It was 11:56, and as soon as I saw my mama car, my heart start beating fast as h**l. I ran upstairs and act like I was sleep while my younger sisters stayed in the living room watching TV, knowing they a** would of been in bed by then. She bust through the door and I couldn't help but jump. “Get yo a** up, get yo s**t, I can't deal with y'all no more, ya wanna kill each other, go ahead, but it ain't gone happen here.” “But Ma he hit me first, and you told me to pick up some and hit him...” “But I didn't say kill his a**.” “He dead.” I said eager to find out. “Why, I heard that you didn't care if he was dead or not.” True s**t his a** don't care about my f*****g life so why should I give a f**k about his.

“Why you still standing here.” “But Ma he hit me first.” I repeated. “I don't give a f**k, I'm tired of y'all, get out my house.” She pointed to the door like I was really about leave. I just stood there and she pushed me to make me move but I jerked back. “Boy I'm not playing with you, either you leave on your own or bring out the worst in me. Was this a joke. “Ma you can't kick me out, look at me.” I could feel the tears I tried so hard to fight falling down my face. This was real. “You gotta go.” “No Ma I ain't got no where to go.” “Yo a** should of thought about that when you knocked yo brother out, and he told me yo a** was gone the whole day.” So his a**  ain't dead. “I know but.. .” I tried to explain myself. “So take yo wanna be grown a** back to where ever you was and don't worry I already told yo brother a** when he get out that hospital he gone too.” “But Ma.” I cried out.  “I'm not gone tell you again, y'all a** got me paying hospital fees with money I don't got. I grabbed a handful of my clothes and tossed them in a garbage bag. I don't know how in the h**l she expected me to carry all this stuff with a limp. “ can I come back and get my stuff.”

“You better take that s**t with you.” I couldn't believe her she never acted like this towards me. I just packed my back pack with clothes and walked out. Camry and Teranie we're standing at the door ear hustling like a motherf****r. “I love y'all.” “Ma don't kick Tre out.” Camry said “Shut up, unless you wanna go with him.” “I do.” Teranie rushed and said. “Take y'all a** to bed.” She yelled. “But you said she could go.” Don't make me beat yo a**.” I walked downstairs, took a deep breath and walked outside and sat on the porch. She walked outside. “Get off my property.” “Ma why you being petty, I don't got no where to go.” “Bye”

I walked down the street to the corner store. I stopped at the pay phone. I just knew I had some quarters. I looked in my pocket, all I had was a dollar. I saw somebody walking past so I ask them for change. He pulled out four quarters but when I gave him the dollar his junky a** ran. “Really Nigga.” I yelled. But it must of been my lucky day. I found two quarters sitting on the phone booth. I wanted to call Chris but I bet his a** wouldn't answer. I would call Kelly but she was out of town. I would call Jay but his a** probably would come just to beat my a**. I went on and called Chris but like I thought his a** wasn't gone answer the phone. I would walk to his house but it was too far plus I'm on crutches. I had to find some where to stay, this s**t is depressing as h**l. I'm too pretty to sleep outside, this some bulls**t. I wish I had relatives that stayed over here. I didn't want too but he was my only choice. I walked to Jay house.

When I finally got there I sat down. I was tired and scared as h**l to knock on that door. I knocked on the door and my heart was beating faster than when I saw my mama. Without even asking who is it the door opened and it was some b***h who came to the door half dressed. I blinked a couple times just to make sure this was real. “Hey ain't you...” Before she could even finish talking I walked off. That b***h didn't know me. “Who was that.” I heard Jay h*e a** yell while I walked off. I felt a strong hand grab me, and before I even turned around I knew it was Jay. “What the h**l you doing here.” “I wanted to apologize.” I was stuttering my a** off. “Give me a f*****g reason why I shouldn't lay yo a** out, for what you did today.” He said looking mad. I walked off on his a** too, I didn't have time for this. Jay gripped my arm even harder. “Naw bring yo a** back over here and answer my question.” I pulled away from him. “TALK yo a** was talking plenty of the s**t earlier.” He said putting his hands in my face. “Don't f*****g cry now you did this to yo self.” I wasn't even crying because of him. I was crying because of the fact that I got put out, and this the s**t I gotta go through and f*****g deal with just to stay at somebody house.

“I'm sorry, okay, I was acting like a b***h.” I said playing it off and not really meaning none of the s**t I said. Jay came closer to my face. “I should still kick yo a** for what you did, but I'm not gone even let you blow my high.” I didn't have the balls to ask him if I could stay so I walked off hoping he would say something. I made it all the way to the gate and Jay said “Hold up.” I wobbled back. “Get in.” He demanded. I got in the car not knowing how to tell him I got kicked out. Jay backed back. “Wait.” “What.” Jay yelled. “My mama put me out.” “Aw so that's why you really over here, I knew yo a** was full of s**t, apologize, I bet.” I got out the car trying to move fast. I knew what his reaction was gone be but if was he was gone keep acting like this F**k It I'll stay on the streets. Jay grabbed me. “Where yo a** going.”

“Somewhere I'm wanted.” I said with much attitude while still feeling tears cover my cheeks. I got out the car and Jay got in my way as usual. I turned my face to hide my tears, while not even attempting to move him out of my way. “Yo a** know you ain't got no where else to go, that's why you over here kissing my a**.” He so gay. “Look at me.” He grabbed my chin which now faced him until I turned my face back around. “Stop all this f*****g crying, if I didn't care about yo a** I would of been let yo a** go better yet beat yo a** for what you did earlier.” I still had my head turned. “Look at me.” I finally turned around to face Jay. “Even though you did what you did, I still got you.” Jay said  while wiping my tears with his index finger, kissing my forehead, and wrapping his arms around me. “You not gone hug me back.” I dropped my crutches and tighten my arms and hands around his back. “I'm sorry.” This time I meant it.

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