Dreamers

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J POV
I felt the weight on my chest move. I open my eyes and see Betty carrying Scarlett to the crib. I get up and follow her. She sets her in the crib, and I wrap my arms around her. "What are you doing?" she asks. "I'm standing here." I reply. I pull her to the bed, and lay next to her. "Get some rest." I say.

She fell asleep after a few minutes. She started clinging to me and woke up gasping. "You're ok." I whisper, holding her closely. She closes her eyes and takes deep breaths. "You're ok. Shhhh. I'm here. It's ok." I whisper. "Everything keeps replaying in my head. From the time I ran at 13 to when I shot tallboy." she whispers, staring at the ceiling. "Tell me about it." I say and she hesitated. "When I was 13, I hopped on a bus, and took it as far as it would go. I was going to sleep on the bench, but that man pulled a knife on me, because I wouldn't get in his car. Fp was riding by and saw me with the knife to the guy. He stopped me from killing him, and he took me back to his trailer. He gained my trust, but it took me a few months to open up to him. I told him about cutting my arms, my parents, and my palms. I still dig my nails in. It helps me to stay in control. When I joined the serpents, Fp told me that I had to get a tattoo that was different from everyone else's. He let me design the royalty tattoo. It's the one that you have. I have designed all the serpent tattoos over the years. I dressed in pastel colors when I went to school because Fp didn't want me to be bullied and he wanted me to get a better education than southside high had to offer. I met Kevin, Veronica, and Archie. Fp told me about Veronica's father, so I was the inside person on the ghoulies. Her father told her everything and she would tell us, but I would report it back to the serpents. When I was about 17, they sent me to therapy. He was a terrible therapist. He, uh. He pushed my buttons and I snapped. He would always pressure me to answer, or he would force me into things, they even sent me to a mental hospital. When I got out I had to go back to him, and I almost killed him. If Fp would have walked in a minute later, I would most likely be in jail right now. Once the serpents learned about it, no one would mess with me. Most of them would run from me, but fangs, sweet pea, Toni, and JB. They would help me through everything. When I got the apartment above the bar, they all encouraged me. Fangs knew about me wanting to kill myself. He walked in on me trying to open a bottle of pills. He never told anyone, and he helped me the most. I'm pretty sure he rigged my apartment with cameras just to make sure I didn't do anything. He stayed over all the time. He is one of my very best friends. Sweet pea was the first one to notice that I barely ate anything. Fp would take us out to eat, and I would order something small, or nothing at all. I guess he noticed how I was getting so thin and weak, my bones would've broken. He got me to eat more, and I started going to the gym to build up my strength. It became my safe place that took Fp a year and a half to get out of me. Whenever I fell off the deep end, or got raging mad, he would follow me there....... When I ran away when I was pregnant, I met Cheryl. I lived with her until I came back......now on to tallboy. I'm glad I shot him, it's just, I wanted to savor it. He was the one that I almost killed a few times. He was the one that pulled the knife on me. He changed his looks so nobody could recognize him, but I did. No matter how many times he changed, I always knew it was him." she says. "I'm so sorry Betty. You didn't deserve any of that." I say.

B POV
"I've had these walls so long, and no one could get anything out of me. I was so closed off that it was unhealthy, but you have broken my walls." I say and he kisses me. "I'm glad I did. I love you to much to lose you." he says. I heard Scarlett cry, and went to get her. I rocked her and she fell asleep. I set her back in the crib and got in bed, falling asleep.