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⚠️warning:mention of self harm⚠️
He was broken. No doubt about it. The fake smiles , forced laughs. All a front. Hoseok as drowning in his own sorrow. His sadness was eating away at him bit by bit.
He became a smoker. He never thought he would but he did.he was sending himself into a downward spiral.
Blue , red , yellow , pink. Those colors had become almost sickening to hoseok. Those pills where honestly going to be the death of him.
Xans, OxyContin, Percocet. He became addicted. But there was another addiction that was burning inside of hoseok.
And that addiction was you. He craved your touch , your sent , your everything. When you guys would get together It'd be a lust, passion filled fuck session that lasted for hours.
You were hoseok rehab. If anyone could give him a big ass slap to reality It'd be you.
The countless times you'd catch him drowing away in his sorrows with a spilled pill bottle, a bottle of whiskey and an arctic monkeys vinyl playing on repeat had you sick.
You hated seeing him in this state and he hated it too. He wanted to be the perfect boyfriend for you. Taking you out on dates and vacation ,but no.
You were to busy making sure he was healthy and sober to be able to do that and he was fed up.
The day you walked in on hoseok with an empty bottle of sleeping pills and a razor covered in blood sent you into a frenzy.
You vowed never to leave his side. Hoseok stayed in a depressive episode for months after that incident.
'She caught me...caught me...she caught me'
Played in his mind like a broken record.he wasn't depressed because he almost died.
He was depressed he actually let him get himself that far into his sorrow that you began to forget about basic necessities for yourself like sleep.
You guys sat alone on top of the rooftop of your apartment. The cool night air nipped your skin as you let out a sigh.
Hoseok looked towards you, a bandaged adorned his hands and arms from silly mishaps that had occurred from everyday life.
Hoseok grabbed your hand leaning over kissing you on your lips lightly. A boyish smirk graced his face as he chuckled a bit looking out onto the brightly lit city.
A soft 'I love you' escaped from his slightly chapped lips as you smiled laying your head on his shoulder.
