𝐁𝐓𝐒 𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐖 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

In the lonley hour(Namjoon)

3rd person POV
[unedited]

[request]

"Dinners ready." Y/n said flatly standing in the doorway of namjoons home office, with a bowl of ramen in her hands.He sat there stoned face staring at nothing in particular as he looked up at y/n.

"I'm not hungry." He said simply leaning back onto his swivel chair as y/n rolled her eyes. Stepping into the dimly lit office space looking around at the countless tissue boxes that littered the mahogany colored floor.

"You need to eat." Y/n said as she shoved the bowl towards him, the steaming hot liquid soloing over into namjoons desk as he looked at the bowl then up to y/n.

"Did you hear me? I said I'm not hungry" Namjoon seethed. His voice calm and rough as y/n stood at the door. Anger seeping through her as she grabbed the nearest item to her throwing it straight at Namjoon.

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE" y/n screamed watching the glass vase she threw shatter into thousands of pieces. Namjoon dodges the flying piece of glass as he stood up abruptly. He staked over time the darker skin female as he pushed her lightly causing her to stumble out of the office.

"GET OUT" he boomed as y/n chuckled dully rolling her eyes. As her fist clenched pushing Namjoon back.

"I hate you." Y/n said simply before slamming the door in namjoons face. Namjoon stared at the door before screaming loudly breaking down into a fit of tears. He knew y/n didn't mean it. It was heat of the moment.

A few moments passed before y/n barges through his office throwing a folder at his slumped figure.

"What the fuck is this" Namjoon sighed rubbing his cheek as he gazed at the manilla folder, a sick feeling taking over his gut as he began to think the worst.

y/n tapped her door foot impatiently as she watched Namjoon stared at the folder blankly as she sighed heavily.

"I want a divorce." She said simply as Namjoon froze. His mouth went dry at the sentence as he felt the overwhelming urge to throw up as he looked up at y/n who read an unreadable expression.

"Excuse me?" Namjoon asked as he watched y/n take of her engagement ring tossing it at him.

"I want. A. Divorce." Y/n sneered punctuating her words. Namjoon shook his head violently as stood up walking over to y/n grabbing her shoulders tightly.

"What? No. Hell no I'm not getting a divorce" Namjoon growled as y/n pushed him back.

"Get out of my face Namjoon.I want A divorce, since you think a marriage is all about you. ITS YOU YOU YOU. When is it ever me? OR US"
y/n raged as Namjoon glared at y/n. Both of their faces dull , grey and puffy from the lack of sleep and crying.

"You're not leaving me y/n" Namjoon said breathing heavily as y/n scoffed.

"You see what I'm talking about? It's always you you you FUCKING YOU" y/n spat out making Namjoon step to y/n face red eyes angry as he glared at the girl.

"You? You?YOU? WHAT ABOUT ME HUH? DID YOU EVEN ASK ME HOW I WAS" Namjoon screamed as y/n stepped back narrowing her eyes.

"You dirty motherfucker.I took care of you Namjoon. I CATERED TO YOU. I watched over you while you wallowed in sadness. I allowed you to cry in my shoulders at night,I cooked for you when you didn't eat, I did everything in my power and I. ME I STILL HAD TO APOLOGIZE TO YOU AFTER I LOST MY FUCKING CHILD. Not once did you ask me if I was ok."y/n cried breaking down.

"I lost my baby girl and you selfishly pushed me away,Blaming me for losing our child. You didn't even comfort me when I had the miscarriage you just wallowed in your self pity. You know how painful it was to deliver a stillborn? To hold my lifeless daughter in my arms while she sat dead cold and blue?I had to deliver my baby dead. I had to bury my baby.God she was so beautiful she had your dimples and curly hair and all 10 of her little fingers and toes" y/n sobbed uncontrollably collapsing to the floor as Namjoon watched shellshocked.

"She was so tiny she looked like a baby doll..." y/n laughed a bit as tears fell.

"I just want to hold her again" y/n cried as Namjoon slowly dropped to the ground tears rolling down his face.

"I'll never get to hear her say hi mommy or hi daddy. I'll never get to take her to her first prom or watch her ride her first bike or take her first steps" y/n cried as Namjoon grabbed her holding her tight as y/n clung to Namjoon desperately. It was the first time in moths the two had held eachother in such an intimate way.

"It hurts" y/n gasped out as Namjoon kisses her forehead softly rocking y/n back and fourth trying to calm her down.

"I'm so sorry y/n...I'm so sorry" Namjoon repeated over and over again as y/n cried looking up at Namjoon with teary eyes.

"She looked just like you" y/n sniffed as he reached up and touched namjoons face softly as the two adults broke down in each other's arms. For the first time in months sharing their pain collectively as they held eachother.

"We can work through this ok? I didn't realize how hurt you were...I was being selfish and not thinking about you. I can even imagine how hard t-this is all for you baby..we can get through this" Namjoon said softly as y/n nodded laying her head against his chest.

"I know we can.....I don't mean what I said earlier...I don't want to leave Namjoon, you're the only thing left of her I have" y/n whispered as Namjoon nodded slightly caressing y/n's hair.

"We can always try again in the future...I bet junie would love to have had a sibling" Namjoon chuckled as y/n giggled.

"I know she was...she was smiling when they gave her to me.." y/n stated sadly thinking back to her child's small face having a beautifully haunting smile on it.

"She was Beautiful just like you.." Namjoon smiled as y/n giggled.

"That's my baby girl for you" y/n smiled playing with the necklace on namjoons neck that held the ashes of the baby girl.

"We need to go to therapy...maybe that'll hel us prepare for another baby in the future.." y/n said as Namjoon looked at her.

"You really want another kid?" Namjoon asked somewhat suprise as y/n nodded smiling happily.

"Junie will watch over them.." y/n smiled as Namjoon returned the gesture kissing his wife softly.

"I love you" Namjoon smiles as y/n smiled placing a kiss on namjoons cheeks.

"I love you too"

Kim juniper:2020-till forever ♾
'We love you angel love mommy and daddy'