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I can't look away. I don't know how to.

It's a free period so I decided to relax in the school's botanical garden. But I should've left sooner, cause now I can't seem to move.

I'm standing behind a tree watching a couple laugh and be romantic.

It hurts...

Seeing Seungmin in love with someone who isn't me hurts.

He was my first love, and I still love him...

He began to kiss her, and I began to tremble.

I can't move, it hurts too much to move.

I can't think. I can't look away. I can't stop my heart from hurting.  I can't breathe. I can't stop my tears from flowing. I can't stop my body from shaking.

I can't do anything at the moment...

I can't bring myself to do anything but watch...

My heart aches from him...

And I hate myself for being so naive, for being so easily fooled.

No, Seungmin didn't pay with me. He didn't lead me on.

I was just to blind to see the truth...

"I'm sorry, " I whisper to myself.

"I'm so sorry heart,  for leading you on," I quietly sobbed. "For fooling you.  For making you feel attraction towards him.  For making you hurt because of him."

I wiped my remaining tears as I finished crying. Taking in a large sum of air, I turned around and walked out of the garden, and headed towards my locker to prepare for my next class.

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