clash || shawn mendes & hailee steinfeld

Chapter 1

I checked the test in my hands. Positive...

I don't know where to feel happy, excited or worried. I feel.. nothing.

I am pregnant. I am pregnant. I say it in my head a few times just so I can believe it. I'm not upset or stressed. I'm just.. shocked. I've always wanted kids but now? I've only been dating Shawn for 3 months. 3 months. Are we ready to start a family!?

I take a deep breath and smile. A cheesy smile. I'm happy. I'm having a baby and its ok.

But my smile fades, what if Shawn's not ready!? What if he leaves having known I'm pregnant!? What if he doesn't want kids!? What if he-

My stomach turns into liquid as all these thoughts come to me. What will he say!?

Shawn's out with his bodyguard, Jake right now. I have some time to think of a way to tell him.. I know, Camila will help me out. I start to text her.

"Camila? I need some help!" I text.

"Hmm? Whats up??" She replies immediately.

"I'm pregnant." I type.

"NO WAY! CONGRATS!!" She texts back.

"Thanks." I smile.

"Does Shawn know??" The message says.

"No, not yet, thats why I need your help" I sigh.

"Shall I come over??" She sends.

"Yes please!" I smile again. 

"Be there in 15 minutes x." I read.

"x." I send. I turn off the iphone and lay back.

Whats the worst that could happen? He finds out, doesn't want the kid and leaves me by myself. Single parent, ok that's pretty bad. But it won't happen, I tell myself over and over again. It won't happen. I recite this in my head again and again until I hear a knock on the door. I find the energy to stand and waddle over to the door. I open the door, exposing a cold Camila. 

"Why are you in your shorts? Its freezing!" I laugh.

"I was warm and snug in my blanket, I wasn't going to get changed just to come here!" She giggles. "Can you let me in now? Its freezing!" She shivers.

"That's why you wear joggers!" She rolls her eyes as I let her in. 

"So lets think," she settles down on the sofa, "Why don't you want to tell Shawn?" I sit next to her and lean back.

"I want to tell him!" I groan in the inside, this wasn't going to get me anywhere.

"Why won't you then?" She lets out a sigh.

"Because, what if he doesn't want the baby? What if he's not ready? What if h-" 

"Hold your horses!" She laughs.

"Whats so funny?" I ask.

"You. Shawn will never leave you, he loves you too much! I don't know why your fretting, you know he wants a baby anyways." She covers her mouth to trap the giggles.

I blush. "He has been on about it.."

"There you go! Stop fretting, Hailee!" She smiles.

"Thanks, I mean it." I pout at her.

The doorbell rings. It must be him!

"I'm going to leave you two to it." I nod as she walks out of the house.

"I- What- I didn't know you had guests in, sorry!" Shawn says.

"Its fine, she was on her way out anyways. How was your day out?" I ask.

"All right." He says. He looks into my eyes and pulls me into a kiss. 

I smile. 

"I've got something to say.." I ask Jake to stay out for 10 minutes.

"Tell me what it is, I'll sort it out." He smiles. 

"I'm pregnant." I let it out.

"Serious!?" His eyes glimmer.

"If you don't want it we can abort or give it up for adopt-" I stammer.

"Hailee!? No way! I want this child, only if you do too." He says.

"Of course I want it." I whisper.

"We're going to be parents!!" He jumps up and down. I laugh at him.

I collapse with relief as he pulls me in for a hug. All of that worrying. For no reason at all.

"Are you sure about this?" I say as  I pull away.

"Sure!? I'm over the moon!! Can I put it on twitter!?"

"Of course, but Aailyah will tell your parents, we want it to be special for them right? " I love him.

"I can just block her." He says with a grin. I smile at him.

I laugh as I read his tweet. "Baby Mendes on the way - Shawn. P.s. don't tell Aaliyah, its a surprise." 

"So there's a baby inside of you right now??" I laugh as I nod.  

"Hello baby. I'm your father. I love you so much." He talks to my stomach.  

I pinch his cheeks and laugh at him. I love him. 

"So how far along are you!?" He asks. Excitedly.

"I don't know. I only took the test today." I say.

"We need an appointment." I nod at him.

"I'll book one for you on Monday, is that ok??" I nod again.

My phone starts to buzz with messages and posts from fans. #babymendes had already got over 1000 posts in. 

I put down my phone and lay in bed. I hear Shawn come in. I feel his warm hands around me. He plays with my fingers and pulls me into a kiss.  I wrap my arms around him and tilt my head to the other side. "I love you Hailee." he whispers into my ears. I smile and close my eyes.