My Husband and Our Lover

Chapter 10: A new me.

Did you ever have one of those mornings were you wake up feeling like you could conquer the world. Well that's me right now. As I wake I feel amazing. I feel hella sore but amazing. I find myself wrapped in between to very handsome men so I cant complain to much except I really have to pee and I cant move.

Finally working my way out of them I stumble to the bathroom as I'm still very sore. I do my business and get a hot soothing bath. I walk out expecting them to be awake but no they are still slumbering. I dress in a cute white dress and a denim jacket. I pair it with my tan wedges and apply a little makeup. Time to wake the boys.

I grab my phone and use my annoying alarm sound which is loud as hell and sounds like a nuclear warning siren. Needless to say it did its job and they both wake up looking around wondering what happened while I'm standing at the end of the bed just in boss mode if you will. They look at me confused and Edwin was about to speak but I cut him off.

"Now that the two of you are awake I need to say somethings with out interruptions. Please wait until I ask you a question before you answer because I really need to get this off my chest." I tell them and they both nod to go ahead.

"Last night was crazy. I don't know how else to say it. It was intense but yet felt so right. I was scared and yet I felt protected. There were so many different emotions that I didn't know how to handle them but I wasn't scared of them if that makes any sense." I explained and they nodded. "With that being said I've come to a conclusion. If you guys are still willing to do this relationship with all three of us I will give it a try but they are going to be ground rules. I see that both of you are into the BDSM world." I continued as they nodded again in response. "Edwin you know that I am just a beginner and not into much pain no matter how many years we have tried this but I was always willing to push beyond my comfort zone for you. However not anymore now that we for some reason found ourselves in a sexual relationship again we are going to establish a new contract that involves all three of us. 

As for the relationship aspect of our lives I don't want to be a submissive 24/7 like I was before not that there was anything wrong with it. I just feel now with everything that has happened I've grown plus I feel I personally get too lost in sub space that I loss my identity. I've become that stronger person than I once was and being a submissive 24/7 that is not me. I want how we were before when I was submissive at home but independent at work." I explain as I pace back and forth. "What I want in this relationship is confusing. I don't know how to explain it. I want pampered and treated like a princess like you always did. For example order my food for me at restaurants or picking out my clothes as we shopped so that I didn't have to. You took away those decisions that were maybe small to others but to me it made me feel protected, loved and wanted that you cared so much to take care of me like you wanted to make sure that everything in my life was perfect. To me that was sexy because I knew you cared for me and loved me but at the same time I want to be treated like a Queen. When it comes to different life decisions I want a say. I want to give my opinion. Should we go here on vacation or there? Should we buy a new house? Should we have another kid? Should we invest with this company or that? What car should we buy? I'm not saying that I want total control I'm just saying that I want to be in the process of making major life decisions as a family. With me working at the company and at my family's company I want to be treated as a professional and an equal. I want to make my own life away from the two of you. I don't want to be so dependent on you like I was. Not that I was financially but you get me. I think that's were things started going south I lost myself. As for anything else I still want to be the submissive. I do honestly hate making trivial decisions like what to wear...what to eat...what restaurant to go to. Is any of this making any sense because I feel as if I'm rambling." I say stopping to look at them.

"I'm starting to confuse myself but what I said is all true as to what I want. I just feel crazy like I don't know what I want. At the same time I truly know what I want. That's what I want. I want to try this with both of you and I want to be submissive to both of you. Taking care of both of you and have you both take care of me. However I want to be that strong third person that is worthy to be in this Triad. I want to be a strong partner that without me this relationship would not work. I mean without any of us this relationship would not work. Does that makes any sense? I feel like I'm losing my mind. Oh and no more painful things. Spankings with hand is okay and that whole edging is in a sense painful in its self so that is fine. That or the so many o's that it starts to hurt I'm okay with but no more whips, electro wand, or anything of that nature." I ended my rant by sitting down on the bed in front of them.

"My we have permission to speak freely Madam?" Edwin said and I laughed as I blush realizing I totally dominated that conversation. My blush caused them both to smirk.

"I suppose if you must" I replied trying to sound authoritative and annoyed but failing.

Edwin started by scooting over to me and grabbing my chin lightly. "I feel as though I can speak for both Shane and I and saying that yes we completely understand what you're trying to say and we would love to continue in this journey with the three of us. At the same time my cock is painfully straining against these boxers because of your little dominatrix show so if we all can agree I feel it's time to move on and you be a good little girl and get down on your knees and take care of me." as he spoke not only did I get up but I looked and both of them and yep they were both very hard.

Time to play. "May I make a suggestion master?" I asked.

"All ready getting brave I see. Well I have loved your suggestions so far today so yes you may." He said.

"Will you let my pussy bounce on Master's long thick hard cock while my mouth and throat pleases Sir Shane?" I suggested feeling all kinds of naughty.

"Well if that is what my Princess wants I am completely at your service. What do you think Shane should we give the Princess what she wants?" He looked at Shane as he grabbed my ass.

"Yes, she does have such a delightful mouth. I'd let her gag on me anytime." Sir Shane replied.

"Well Princess it looks like instead of starting your day with eggs and bacon you're going to start your day with these too long hard sausages now get to it." Edwin smirked.

"Yes master" I replied.

Let's just say the morning till mid-afternoon was quite invigorating.