My Husband and Our Lover

Chapter 18: I feel insane.

It has been two weeks after that meeting where it came out that Edwin and Emma didn't have sex. It was made to look like that by Alessandro. It's been two weeks of finding out that Edwin is and organized crime boss. It's been two weeks sense my world has yet again been turned every which way but right.

Now I'm 8 months pregnant. Which means I'm hungry, annoyed, fat, annoyed, sad, annoyed, horny oh and annoyed. I feel all types of crazy. I've been staying in Edwin's house my old house but it is weird. I haven't talked to Alessandro in two weeks he just keeps calling and calling. I love Edwin and I'm glad they didn't have sex but I'm hurt they hid it from me and the pregnancy that at the time they thought could be Edwin's. Plus he hid that he is a crime boss. I feel like life is a sham.

The tension in this house is crazy. I don't think I can forgive either of them. My birthday is coming up and I'm just like WHY???? If it wasn't for Theo and my unborn daughter Athena I'd probably jump off the bridge. I've never felt this way before. I'm so overwhelmed. I feel like I can't trust anyone. My in laws which includes Patrick knew about the other job I'll say. Jack knew too. Hell he is the second in command. Shane knew as well. That's actually how they met. Edwin needed a damn good computer wiz and that turned out to be Shane. From there he just had Shane integrated into the company through the I.T. department.

Right now I'm at D.C. and can't focus. I'm not feeling well. I keep getting dizzy. I feel extremely tired. I need to talk to someone but I feel like I have no one. I pick up the phone and dial.

Emma: Abs is everything okay? I have you on speaker. ( she sounds concerned)

Me: I....I ..... I don't know....you come....I ne...I need you.....I don't feel.... I need.... sister. I'm sorry ..never mind. I'm busy... everyone....is.....let's shop. (I say trying to clear my head as the fogginess takes over)

Emma: Where are you? I'll come to you.

Me: I want.....Edwin. He hates me...

Background noise: Something is wrong with her. (Someone says) We need to get to her. (Another says) Call Philippe ask if she is there (another voice) Call an ambulance (voice)

Me: He....he doesn't..... love me.... why? I love him....I miss Edwin....I want Edwin.....I'm sorry...I don't feel good.

Background noise: Tell them she is 26 yrs old, 8 months pregnant and she is saying she doesn't feel well. She is talking but is not making sense. (Voice)

Emma: I'm with Jack and everyone we are on our way we'll be there soon.

Two minutes later my P.A. Philippe comes in. "I got a call from Mr. Donovan he asked me to sit with you until someone comes." He explained.

About five minutes later my office door slams open and someone scoops me up. Warmth all around me. I look up to see everyone. I'm in Edwin's arms and he looks concerned.

Me: Edwin.... you....you came here okay.

Edwin: Baby what's wrong? The ambulance has been called your very pale and your eyes look hazed.

Me: You hate me. I love you and you lie to me. I can be better.

Edwin: Your perfect baby. I'm sorry. Everything is my fault not yours. I need to be better.

Philippe leads the paramedics in. They hook me up and ask all kinds of questions. "Her sugar is dropping that's the problem. She is at 42. We are going to hook you to an IV until we get to the hospital okay." The paramedics explained.

Edwin: I'm going in the ambulance with her. You all can meet us there.

Paramedic: Let's put her on the stretcher.

Edwin: No, I'll carry her.

Paramedic: Sir I'm sorry that is against policy.

Edwin: I don't give a damn. She is my wife the mother of my children.

Paramedic: Sir I understand but we have procedures.

Edwin: In all due respect Fuck your procedures. Do you know who the fuck I am?

Me: Your Edwin Alexander Donovan. My....hubby.....Right?

Edwin: Yes princess that's right.

Paramedic: Sor...sorry Sir...we will follow you to the Ambulance that is out back.

Edwin: Let's go Princess.

Me: Please stay ... me.

Edwin: Always. I'll always stay with you. I'll never leave you my angel.