RDJ Daughter// Tom Holland Fan Fic

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"Hey! No no no you can't call me a dork" I fought back. I didn't want the conversation to end because then there's silence, and silence is much much worse than this awkward conversation. I've actually hated silence lately, since I've felt like I'm close friends with death lately. Weather it be from my mental or physical health. Nothing seems very important.
There it was. The thick silence that made me want to scream. "Your really quiet" I whispered making him laugh. A genuine laugh too. Not a forced one like everyone's been doing lately. Even myself.
"Well what do you wanna talk about?"
"You change topics very fast Holland"
       "I think your just afraid of silence"
       "Ya think?" I asked laughing we both kind of shifted and this was probably the start of a very new. Awkward friendship.
        "It's weird" he said, he got off the bed and sat in the chair so we could talk easier
        "Everything's weird in my life right now"
       "It's just I expected a nicer more romantic place where I would express my feelings for the girl I've liked since the first time I met her"
      "Like what?"
      "Well I actually had a plan"
       "That obviously didn't work" I laughed
       "Well my plan was bloody awful"
       "What was it?"
       "Wellll,,, you were dating Jake and I was gonna take you here, to London and express my love for you and hope you left Jake"
       "Your an actual idiot"
       "Haz made sure I knew that"
       "God talking about Jake gives me chills"
       "Why did you stop loving him?"
       "You don't stop loving someone" I sighed "I still have love for Jake. I don't hate Jake, I just...we lost our spark. It was as if we were in a relationship just for the purpose to say we were. We had no emotional connection. I did love him and I still do. Just not in the way I did when we first met"
        "Oh,,,I get it. I guess?" He said kind of seeming off
       "Tom" I put my hand on his arm "Your not like Jake"
       "It's just this is scary" he admitted
       "It is" I sort of laughed "that's why I've never said my actual feelings."
       "But you knew I always liked you" he tried to argue
       "I really didn't. But I made it very clear to you!"
       "No you did not!" He laughed "Haz had to help me figure out your signals"
       "You were the one sending mixed signals!"
       "How!" He said and I raised my eyebrow and he instantly got defensive (jokingly though) "the day we were in your dads trailer. We almost kissed"
       "You remember that?" I smiled
       "Are you kidding love?? Why would I forget. I remember the night I fell in love with you. The night I wanted to ask you right then and there to go out with me. I remember all these things because I'm Litterally head over heels for you. And am an idiot to not of told you sooner"
      "I wish the nurses would've let you in sooner" I sighed looking at my thumbs and twirling them
      "I mean they did, your mom was the one-"
      "Wait what?"
      "The nurses always let us come in but your mom was scared"
       "Your meaning to tell me my mom cut me off from the world for a week for no reasons except selfish ones?!"
       "That's not very selfis-"
       "Yes. Yes because she left me in here not allowing anyone to come in because SHE couldn't handle seeing me when I got worked up. SHE could stand seeing the alarms going off around me"
       "Ok aurora I'm here now, let's not ruin a good moment-"
       "It was ruined a week ago while I sat in here alone wondering what you were doing. All along she could've sent at least avri in. I haven't seen my baby. Wanna know what she asked me before I left. She asked if I was coming back. I don't think that Aurora is ever coming back." I broke our into sob
      "Ro—-Ro" Tom came and held me in his arms. I couldn't believe this. Mom made me sit in this room with no entertainment for a week because SHE was scared. Does she understand how scary things are going through it alone. Right here. Where I am right now. In Toms arms would've been my cure. I would've been better by the third day. Tom is what I needed this entire time and mom took that from me. It's not even a big deal to most. Not all really I'm probably sounding like an annoying teen. But imagine sitting in a room. Plain white walls and the only decorations are signs about how your feeling and different diseases. The only tv plays the crappiest shows. No way to know what's going on. Phone, computer, and Tom all taken away from me. All you do is sit here counting the hours until the next nurse comes in. Mom was even scared to be In here. I'm a monster to her. I feel like I'm a monster to everyone. I really don't belong anywhere anymore.