RDJ Daughter// Tom Holland Fan Fic

•Phone call Pt. 2•

           We sat on the phone in silence, both trying to process to go about this. Either we finally settle this or "I'm sorry Aurora but....it was nice talking to you" or that way. Hanging up and never talking again.
        "Tom please wait...." I argued
        "Stop telling me to wait Aurora. I'm tired of waiting. Okay everything I do is just wait wait wait. I swear to god if you tell me to wait one more damn time I'm gonna lose it alright?!!! ALL MY LIFE I've waited. Waited and WAITED AND I DONT WANT TO ANYMORE. I'm tired of waiting for the things I never get cause IM never enough. I'm sorry I wasnt the one you wanted and IM sorry I wasted your time. Cause yours is obviously more precious than anyone else's" and there it is folks. I have broke the most innocent person, the most amazing and caring and thoughtful, and sweet person i have ever talked to. I began crying. Then I began weeping I didn't want Tom  to hear so I muted my phone. "Are you still even here?" I took it off mute for a quick second
      "yep" I said very softly so he wouldn't hear the crack in my voice. Then quickly muted it again.
      He sighed, "I just don't wanna be 2nd best anymore" I stopped and thought for a second. Have I done that. Always made Tom feel like 2nd best? I've never meant too. God I'm an awful person
"I'm done forcing something with you Aurora, I'm done waiting for nothing. I wanted you. I've always wanted you. I still want you, but it's exhausting. Always putting someone first and just realizing you've never even been there's." I quickly unmuted my phone
"Tom please. You were never 2nd bes-"
"Really Aurora? Are you so sure about that? Because never is a very strong word, and I think you might be confusing never with the word always. Have you ever once considered me your number 1 Aurora? EVER. HAVE YOU EVER ONCE IN YOUR LIFE CONSIDERED ME A NUMBER ONE TO YOU GOD DAMNIT" I heard a loud thud, then it went silent
       "Tom??" I said on the already dead line, and then the truth was reveled and the call failed. He had whipped his phone. Then every tear, every drop of water poured out of me. The real truth is that this is probably the Last time I'll ever talk to Tom and that hurts me more than anything in my life.
      I can't breathe.
     I sit there not making a sound while silent tears pour down my face. It's not a like normal cry, no no. It's a painful breakdown. With tears pouring down but I have no sound. I sit there hunched over balling.
      How selfish I have been. I haven't considered Toms feelings, his emotions. I've treated as if he were number 2 while I've always wanted him. It's always been him no matter what. It was supposed to be him. It was meant to be him. I want it to be him.
"GOD" I screamed and then whipped a pillow at the wall knocking down many things. Trina slowly opened the door, I looked at her emotionless almost.
"Aurora?" She slowly walked towards me and I shook my head
"All this Time. It was all my fault." I turned to stare blankly at the wall in front of me.
"Aurora it's okay" she walked closer
"NO ITS NOT TRINA! Okay I just lost the best thing that had ever happened to me and FRANKLY ITS NOT OKAY. I AM NOT OKAY"
She flinched "he'll come around Aurora, Boys are just dumb"
"SHUT UP TRINA! Okay there's nothing good that will come out of this. I ruined it all AND I COULDNT EVEN SAY HOW SORRY I AM"
"Aurora baby everything will be okay." She put her arm around me and I pushed it away
"DONT TOUCH ME" I screamed at her. She seemed terrified
"AURORA!" She yelled back at me
"I DONT NEED YOU TO TRY AND MAKE THINGS BETTER RIGHT NOW WHEN THEYRE OBVIOUSLY NOT. I DONT NEED TO BE BABYED OKAY?!? I need you to leave." I finally looked into her eyes
"Aurora you need someone here with you"
"No I want you to leave"
"Aurora"
"Please leave."

*a couple hours later*
I hadn't moved. I have lost every tear and just have been sitting here numb. I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in" i softly said
"Aurora?" It was mom and she came over and sat with me on the bed
"Trina told me what had happened"
"I'm sorry mom I just really wanna be left alone right now"
"I'm sorry baby" she completely ignored what I said and began brushing my hair with her fingers.
"I messed up mom" then all the tears I didn't know I still had cake back
"I know. It's okay"
"No it's not"
"Niki texted me."
"Holland?!" I shot up and she nodded her head yes
"Tom feels awful"
"No he doesn't" and it was the truth. It wasn't his fault and I really don't deserve a second chance.
"Aurora Toms a nice kid he obviously does"
"Well he shouldn't. I deserved it." I bluntly told her. Then we heard Avri begin crying in the other room
"I better go"
Saved by the bell I guess.