Your Forever // Justin Hills

Chapter 6

..iris's pov..

"they weren't kidding when they said the 3rd times the charm" i laugh

"whats that supposed to mean" justin says and pulls me to him

"it means.. that it gets better every-time. it started out perfect and now its 'i didn't think it could get so perfect perfect'" i kiss him and he laughs again

"you got me worried there, cause ya know usually when people say that it means 'you sucked the first 2 times and now your acceptable'" he looks at me and turns red "not that anyone has ever siad that to me though.. cause ya know" i laugh

"oh believe me... i know" i kiss him again "i dont think its possible for you to be bad" i smile and kiss him more

"i think... i love you" he looks at me and i smile

"im falling for you justin..." he grabs my hands and kisses me. he holds me from behind and spoons me

"you're amazing iris" he whispers and kisses my neck

"even though I'm enjoying this more than you could imaging, wanna go downstairs ?" i smile

"anywhere with you babe" he kisses me again and we get up "but... i think i should maybe put some clothes on" he laughs

"awwww, please dont" he turns red and i kiss him "i like you better without clothes" he pulls me onto his lap

"the feelings mutual" i get up and pull him up with me

"downstairs ?" i smile and he puts his clothes back on while i slip on my undies and bra. he walks up and grabs my hand and we go down the stairs. he sits on the barstool and motions for me to sit next to him "food" i laugh and walk to the fridge, i scan the contents and nothing catches my eye, i hear justins phone buzz "your phones upstairs, in my room" i say

"sorry, it might be someone from the band." he goes up the stairs and i look in the cabinets marshmellows i smile and grab the bag. justins already up stairs so i go up to join him. the doors closed.. i walk up and hear him talking

"i miss you too baby" wtf "lindsey its fine, ill be back soon" lindsey ? isnt that his ex..? "babe I gotta go, we're practicing some new music, I love you" he hangs up. my heart drops and I suddenly feel nauseous he's cheating on Lindsey.. with me. he told me he loved me when he already loves Lindsey ! why did I trust him ?! why did I go to the bus ! justin opens the door and sees me, he looks kinda scared, mostly nervous.

"what're you doing up here baby" he smiles and reaches for my hand, I pull away and a tear falls down my cheek.

"why did you do it" I ask.. he just stares at me

"iris what're you taking about ?"

"why did you sleep with me and tell me you loved me and do all those things ?! you're a liar !" I almost never raise my voice.. but I do now "you have Lindsey so you didn't need me !" I tell "you love her and she loves you and you should've never given me that note ! what the hell were you even thinking justin ?!" he looks like he's gonna cry and it takes everything in me to not feel guilty

"iris I-" he reaches for my hand once more and I back away

"don't touch me.." I look away "..ever again"

"I don't love her.. I wasn't lying when I said I loved you. I didn't -"

"didn't what" I cut him off "mean for me to find out or maybe you didn't mean to sleep with me more than once. what am I to you justin ? I'm not gonna let myself be treated like this.. I can't" another tear slips down my cheek "get out" he looks at me "now" i say, I step aside so he can easily make his way down the stairs and out of my house

"I do love you" he says and kisses me once more "that wasn't a lie" he walks past me and down the stairs, closing the door on his way out

"and I love you too" I mumble. I crumble to the floor and a thousand tears spill from my eyes. my wrist itches and begs to be opened.. what's one more cut, the urge is overwhelming and always there so why not now ? I stand and walk to the bathroom, tears still running down my face. it's been 2 years since the last time I cut.. I crave the feeling it fills me with.. every time the blade sliced through my delicate skin I was happy. I yank open my drawers and push everything aside searching for the small piece if metal, I find it. the light reflects off of it and it looks kinda pretty. I close my eyes is this really gonna be worth it ? I ask myself ah fvck it what's a few more cuts i pick up the blade and slide it across my scarred wrist, the blood bubbles and glides down my wrist, pooling in my hand. I cut again.. and again and again and again. until there's to many to count. I smile, the feeling it gives me hasn't changed. I look at my wrist, the blood from the new cuts coats my arm. I pull a few sheets of toilet paper from the roll and wipe the blood from the tile, it just smudges fvck, this hasn't changed either. I run the paper under water an try again, it comes up this time. I clean the blood from my wrist as well and it stings ow the blood just bubbles up again and I have to keep wiping it. screw it i walk to my closet and pull on a black hoodie.

Justin's sunglasses sit on my nightstand and I begin to cry again... I walk over and pick them up I can't do this to myself I throw them in the drawer and try to forget about them. my phone buzzes

I'm leaving San Diego in 2 days.. I want to talk to you , I need to talk to you. I'll do anything just to see you once more -justin

I shut my eyes and sit on my bed, the sheets are still in a mess on the foot of the bed from last night. i should listen to what he has to say... but does he deserve it ? my phone buzzes again

your father will be home soon but I'll be home around ten.. the movie ran late -mom

I look at my clock

9:05

my dad will be home in afew minutes and my mom will probably sleep over at her 'work friends'. I pick up my phone and text justin

i don't know why but, I'll see you before you leave.. hear what you have to say. just not today, I have family shit to take care of.

I hit send and put my phone in my sweatshirt pocket. I go downstairs to clean up any mess me and justin might've made before my dad gets home

ayy, this chapters kinda short but I wanna kinda keep em like organized or whatever so.. I'll update often just with short chapters sometimes. mmkay well thanks for reading, commenting, and voting. it means a lot cx keep doing what you're doing. and if you ever want or need to talk juskik me.. viviannmariee__ (two underscores) <3 ily guys