The Selfie Queen ღ [On-Hold]

Chapter 12: Don't Let Him In

CHAPTER 12: Don't Let Him In
 

Cassandra's Point of View
 

"I killed her.. I Killed her.. It's all my fault.. I'm a murderer.. I killed nana Juliet.." 
 

Sa isang sulok ng puting kwarto kung nasaan ako, patuloy kong binubulong sa sarili ang mga katagang yan. I hugged my knees which are bent infront of my chest and slowly rock myself back and forth. That's what I've been doing the whole time since I got here. The room I am in is so bright that I have to squint my eyes to see. Everything is white. The walls were made of cotton and foam, even the floor. And there's a barred window across the currently close door. I know where I am and I pity myself for that. Tears started to pool in my eyes again and I continue chanting those phrases once more. 

 

What have I done to deserve this? Am I cursed?

"Napamahal? Aku sa kanya?? You kidding me??"
"Niligawan ku lang siya dahil rin kay uncle victor."
"I WOULD NEVER LOVE YOU BACK!!"

Napahawak ako sa ulo ko nang parang sirang plaka nagpaulit-ulit ang mga sinabi nila Miel. Leave me alone.. Please leave me alone.. I tried covering my ears but it's no use.. They are inside my head.. Leave me alone!!

 

"I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

 

I yelled at the tip of my lungs. I can feel my heart pounding and stomach pulsating. Groaning with anguish I writhed. My eyes are leaking and my breathing came out in sharp, shallow rasps. I can't contain it. I feel like dying this moment. I pursed my lips as my head feels like it's going to crack. 

Bumukas ang pinto at niluwa nito ang apat na nurse at patakbo silang lumapit sa akin. Hahawakan sana nila ako pero pumiksi ako.

 

"DON'T TOUCH ME!!" I growled at them like a wild animal. At this point, I don't know what sanity means anymore. And I don't care. I just wanted to die.
 

"Please Miss.. Calm down.." sabi nung isa sabay hawak sa kaliwa kong kamay.
 

"ANO BA? BITAWAN NIYO KO!! LAYUAN NIYO KO!! LEAVE ME ALONE!! SINO BANG BALIW DITO? ANG MGA PASYENTE O KAYO?! BA'T DI NIYO KO AINTINDIHAN?!"
 

"Baby.. Cass.. Please.." My stares darted to the door where my crying mom is. My mom is crying.. she's crying and that's because of me.. Lumapit siya at lumuhod sa harap ko para mag panatay kami. Hinawakan niya ang magkabila kong pisngi.
 

"Mommy?"
 

"Oo Cass, andito na ako." Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit and somehow it comforted me. But no. She can't stay anywhere near me.
 

"Layuan moko." Bulong ko sa kanya.
 

"Cass?" She let go of me and looked at me at arm lenght. Pero tinanngal ko ang pagkakahawak niya.
 

"Lumayo ka saken!! Huwag niyo kong lalapitan!  Bakit pa kayo umuwi?!! Stay away from me!!" Pasigaw kong sabi sa kanya.
 

"Can't you see mom? Lahat ng lumalapit sa akin napapahamak?! SO LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!! I SAID STAY A-" Naputol ang sasabihin ko ng maramdaman ko ang pagtusok ng isang syringe sa kaliwang braso ko. Nanlalabo na ang paningin ko but I could still see how my mom cried at kung paano nagmamadaling gumalaw ang mga nurse.And before the darkness succumbs me, I still managed to utter some few words..