Sebastian Michaelis x Male Reader

XXII

I wake up to a tickling sensation on my stomach. Sebastian is mumbling about something to himself as we lie together. I might as well enjoy this moment while we have it. Who knows when Alois will demand our attention again? I feel Sebastian press his lips against the back of my neck and run two fingers down my upper abdomen. "This one was my fault..." he mumbles against my flesh.

"Are you counting my scars?" I ask him as I wipe the sleep from my eyes. I turn to him and pat his cheek softly. "I've been through quite a lot to get here."

"It hurts me now to know that you suffered so greatly," Sebastian tells me quietly. "And to think I added to that list of suffering..." He runs his fingers over the scar he gave me again.

"You also gave me a baby," I tell him, brushing the ebony hair out of his crimson eyes. "I've suffered a lot in my life...but the moments that we have together now make all that suffering worth it." I kiss Sebastian on his soft lips as I run my hands down his bare chest.

Sebastian crawls on top of me, kissing me more deeply with each passing second. "That makes me the happiest I've ever been," he whispers against my lips. "I missed you so much over these last nine months...Ciel has never been such a hindrance before."

"What happened? I know you know what happened to my Record, but why didn't you come to me in my dreams?"

He stops kissing me and looks right into my eyes. "I was in the demons' realm," he tells me quietly. "That one is severed from all others. Have you ever wondered why it is the fallen angels that dwell in hell? It is a place for those who have cut off connection to God completely. My natural realm is just that. As long as I am in my realm, I can not have any contact with anything of God. I suppose you already know that everything of this earth is of God as well."

"Why didn't you come out of that realm?" I ask him softly.

"Ciel needed to get used to being a demon. Everything happened at such a fast pace...I had no chance to leave the realm until Ciel declared himself ready. And when that time came, our bond was so weak that I could not form a connection even though we were in the same world. Forgive me...please."

"How could I blame you for something you could not control?" I ask him as I reach up to kiss his cheek. "Now tell me why you didn't have my Record."

"I had gone back for it--I truly had. I had searched the entire manor for your Record before I was dragged into the demons' realm--before Ciel's false funeral. But I couldn't find it...so I promised to find you again the first chance I had."
"How did it happen?" I ask him, getting a bit annoyed at his pleading defensiveness. "How did Undertaker get a hold of my Record?"

Sebastian's eyes grow dark and he backs away from me a bit. "There are some beings who know only how to be a hindrance. Grell Sutcliff is one of those creatures."

I sit up and punch Sebastian in the chest, successfully knocking him off of me. "Grell? It was Grell?" Every emotion I have ever felt begins to flow through my mind. "All this time?" Slowly, one emotion creeps out beyond all the rest. "H-he betrayed me."

"The man is desperate...I doubt he can control himself," Sebastian grumbles as he rubs his chest. "But he will not go unpunished. I promise to make him pay for hurting you so."

"W-what are you planning?" I ask him softly. There's no doubt that I'm furious--I never want to see the Reaper again. But I don't want Sebastian to go and rip his limbs off. "Don't torture him--it's obvious that he's not exactly sane."

"You've forgiven him too quickly, (y/n)," Sebastian tells me gruffly. "He almost took all of the pain and torture you had faced throughout your miserable life and put it to waste. W-what if I hadn't found you? What if you were left to hate me even after we had come across each other again? Even the potential consequences of his actions cannot go unpunished. I promise you to make sure of it."