May 2013,
It has been one month since I gave birth. Premature si Achi pero wala naman siyang naging komplikasyon. It was so painful that I almost give up. Pero nailabas ko naman ng maayos si Achi. I still remember that I was crying inside the delivery room kasi sobrang sakit at wala man lang humawak ng kamay ko. I was so scared that Achi won't make it because there's too much blood coming out from me. I thought I would lose Achi and that made me so scared. Santiago was away as usual. Alam ko naman kung nasaan at sino ang kasama niya eh. Achi needed to be put in an incubator for weeks. Halos hindi na ako umalis sa tapat ng nursery room because I was afraid that something might happen to him. After a week, they let me hold Achi for the first time. I cried so loud. I cried so loud because I pity Achi for receiving the same treatment his father was giving to me. It was very unfortunate of Achilles that I was her mother because he had to suffer. I cried so hard for my son. Kawawa naman siya. If he had a different mother, maybe his father would give him his attention. If his mother was Carise, Santiago would treat him better. I'm sorry my Achilles, I am your mother. How would I look straight to his eyes when he asks me why his father treats him like that? He'll be mad at me for sure.
