Just friends? | a.i

Chapter 11

Kate's pov.

I laid on my bed my heart was pounding as thoughts rushed through my brain.

I looked on my right and saw my blade.

I got up and took it and cut myself.

I went into the bathroom and saw my moms sleeping pills. I took five and I went to my bed hoping I'll never wake up and it'll all be over.

I was drifting off slowly to sleep and then I saw someone run into my room.

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I open my eyes. Where am I? Am I dead? Oh please, I hope I'm dead.

I look to my left and I see someone.

My eyes adjust and I see Ashton.

"Thank god your awake." He sighs.

Shit, I'm still alive.

I sigh as well and cuss under my breath.

"Why am I here?" I say.

"You tried to kill yourself Kate." Ashton say, his voice was shaky.

"Exactly! I wanted to die! Why am I here! Why aren't I dead! Why would you care anyways!" I shout.

My head is pounding.

I feel that familiar stinging in my wrist.

"Kate, I care about you!" Ashton says.

I look away. I knew he was just saying that because he didn't want me to try to kill myself again.

"Kate!" Anna says bursting into the little room I was in.

She hugs me so tight and it felt so comforting.

"Kate everything's going to be okay." She says.

I don't answer.

I see a Harry come into the room.

Oh no, I don't want to be in the same room as Harry and Ashton again.

"Guys can I just be alone for awhile." I say.

They all nod and they get out of the room.

My friends are here yet my parents aren't, I'm not surprised. Mom's always on business trips and I don't see Dad anymore.

Why didn't Ashton just let me die.

How did he find me anyways?

I just noticed that when I woke up he had tear stains on his eyes.

Was he crying? Was he afraid that I was going to die? He cared. Ashton cared.

Why was I so mean with him. Why did my feeling have to be so hard to figure out.

A nurse was in my room doing who know what.

"Can you tell Ashton to come here?" I say to the nurse.

"Sure." She says.

She leaves and a few moment later Ashton comes in the room.

"You wanted to talk with me?" He says.

"Yeah." I say and sit on my bed.

I gesture him to sit on it as well.

"I'm sorry for being so ignorant." I say.

"About what?" He asks.

"My feelings for you, I knew I had feelings for you but I was just afraid that one day your feelings for me would leave and we wouldn't be friends anymore. And I really dont want to lose our friendship." I say.

"We'd never lose our friendship." He says.

"Do you still like me, after all of this and the thing with Harry." I say breaking eye contact and looking to the floor.

"Always." He says lifting my chin.

And we kissed, not a normal kiss, not even close to the first time I kissed Luke, or any other time i've kissed him, kissing Ashton made everything clear, I don't think I have feelings for Ashton, I know I have feeling for Ashton, when we kissed it felt... magical, it felt as perfect as it looked like in the movies. I can't believe all this time I thought we were just friends.