baggy sweatshirt ON PAUSE // joshler au

c h a p t e r t h r e e //home

wow.

the tyler joseph, looked right at me

stop it josh, you can't fall for him, it's not fair to your family

you're right, i need something to distract myself

i glance towards my phone, maybe wattpad will get my mind off of things

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it's about 5:45 when my mom arrives home, i can tell by the beep of the door

i walk downstairs to be greeted by my flustered mother holding lots of bags

i rush over and grab some setting them on the kitchen island

"thank you joshua, how was school today?"

"it was okay, same old, same old, pretty sure i failed my history test today"

my mother chuckles slightly,

"i'm sure you did fine sweetie, i'm gonna go take a quick nap and then i'll be down to make dinner"

i know what that really means

what she's really gonna go do, is go to her room, wallow in her self depression from missing her husband and then ask me to make dinner

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as if on cue at 6:45 i get a call from my mother

"hello?"

"hey honey, i had a long day at work, do you think you can make dinner tonight? i'm sorry"

you always are

"yeah sure, it'll be done in about 20 minutes"

i walk into the kitchen seeing my little brother jordan, while he's only a few years younger than me, he's still a kid in my eyes

i guess he's talking to his friends on the phone, because he pays no attention to me

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finally, dinner is made

i walk a plate that i made for my mom upstairs

how much you want to bet that she'll complain about something and not even say thank you

"here you go!"

"josh, where are the chips?"

i breath in calmly,

"my bad i'll go get them"

i soon return with the chips and leave to go to my room grabbing myself a plate

finally checking my phone in two hours, i see a text from brendon

B: hey man, still coming to my party friday? i've heard tyler is going to be there ;)

J: wouldn't miss it for the world, and who cares if tyler is there

i care.

B: dude, are you serious? you're crazy for him!

J: whatever, i need to get to bed, gn

B: see you tm ig

i roll over after receiving the text from brendon

i shut my eyes with only one thing on my mind,

pretty brown, hot chocolate eyes