baggy sweatshirt ON PAUSE // joshler au

c h a p t e r f o u r //project

i wake up around three in the morning, this is normal for me, i can never seem to sleep

i log onto snapchat to see if anyone is up, surprisingly enough, tyler is

i click his story to see what he's up to, "slide up, cowards"

i chuckle to myself seeing the blunt words

i slide up seeing he linked that app where you can send someone a text message and it being completely anonymous

i was feeling ballsy that morning, so i clicked on the link attached and typed something without even reading it first, clicking send.

minutes later his story had been updated and there's my message, i finally read it

"i am overwhelmingly and utterly infatuated with you. i would tell you in person or even reveal who i am, but i fear rejection." (fun fact, i actually did this once and these were my exact words, im desperate i know)

shit. why the hell would i say that? i'm so stupid

i finally decide to read tyler's response to my confession

"oh wow, thank you :) slide up and maybe we can talk about?"

i did not slide up

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i know that tyler's locker is near mine, honestly it's the best thing ever

it's seems like everyday as i walk to math he's passing me to go to where his books are kept

almost like clock work everyday

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we've been moved into group in murphy's class.

please god, if you exist you won't group me with tyler

"okay guys, your groups are posted on the board"

i walk to the board slowly, too scared to look

okay, i have brendon, troye, so far so goo-

i spoke too soon

"looks like it's you, me, sivan, and joseph, dun"

brendon says a little too cheery

"looks like it" i hear a soft voice speak

i turn around to be greeted with those brown eyes, those god damn brown eyes

"yeah"