lie //yoonmin

14 // yoongi

I tell myself that I should stay away from Jimin. There's no point in letting myself get attached to him when I don't have the time to pursue a relationship. When it will just end in flames like my last one.

I switch on the TV and lay across the couch with a tub of ice cream wondering if it will make me feel better like it does with my characters. I cover myself with blankets and stick a giant spoonful of vanilla ice cream in mouth, leaning back and trying to get the small blonde boy out of my mind.

I wake up 3 hours later with TV still playing and melted ice cream running onto my blankets. I groan, shoving the ruined sheets off of me and reaching for my phone. 

All the tiredness is gone from my body when I see a text from Jimin from 4 hours ago. A simple 'hey' after days of no contact. I stare at the message deciding what to do.

Jimin:
Hey

Me:
Hey

I write back before I can remind myself that I shouldn't.

I immediately get a text back.

Jimin:
Can you come over? 

Jimin:  

Please

Me:
Why?

Jimin:
Just please

Me:
Im on my way but is everything ok?

Jimin:
No

I stare at the message, unsure of what to think of it. Nonetheless, I'm grabbing my keys and running out my front door, forgetting about the decision to stay away from him. I'm just hoping he's ok.

As beautiful I think his hands are, I noticed how weak they felt. Frail and bony. I noticed how he stayed away from the topic of food. How shy and insecure is. How he flinches if I get too close. His mental health obviously isn't in the best place. 

I don't know about his past but I can tell it wasn't a happy one. The possibilities of things that could be wrong is infinite.

I speed my way to his house, thankful I didn't get stopped by any cops. I'm running up to his door and impatiently waiting after I knock.

The door opens a couple minutes later to reveal a puffy eyed Jimin, holding onto a fluffy white blanket. He has dark circles around his eyes and his hair is messy. He looks like he had been crying for hours.

The words fall from my lips before I'm able to stop them and I reach out to him. "Baby, what's wrong?"

I know I shouldn't have called him that when I see tears welling in his eyes. He doesn't reply, but instead takes my hand and pulls me into his house.

He curls up on his couch, drowning underneath his large blanket while I awkwardly stand in the hallway.

I ask again. "Jimin, please tell me what's wrong."

"I-I will, I just can't b-believe you actually came," he hiccups through tears.

I sit down next to him, putting an arm around his shaking figure.

"Of course I came," I say softly kissing his forehead.

"I-I thought you hated me," he whimpers, leaning into my touch.

Everything in me is saying to stop. Retreat before I get hurt, but I can't seem to walk away anymore. How can I leave when he's in this state. How can I not comfort him when he looks this broken.

He pulls away from me and straightens up, wiping away his tears.

"Listen," he starts. "I really like you hyung. I know we don't really know each other and it's stupid that I'm already so attached to you but I can't help it. I've always been weak that way. But people never stay with me. I'm disgusting, I know. So if don't feel the same way, can you please let me know and save me some heartache."

I look at him dumbfounded. Part of me is grinning ear to ear, knowing that he likes me too. Another part wants to cry hearing how he truly thinks of himself. And whatever's left over wants to kill whoever hurt him and make him think this way.

I guess I stayed silent for too long because Jimin had started crying again.

I scoop him into my arms, ignoring his efforts to get away.

"Jimin, I like you too."

He freezes.

~V

Anyone know whats up with the Smeraldo Books Twitter? I finally decided to give up on the storyline but now everyone's back with new theories and ughhhh I JUST WANT TO UNDERSTAND! I didn't know that it's all been connected since Wings?! This is too much for me. I'm the type of person that likes to have things figured out and this is ripping my brain apart :/ 

If anyone understands what the actual fuck BTS's storyline is please DM me lol