It's been 5 months since the party at the lake house & Harry & I no longer talk. We no longer kiss or even look at each other. If I was to say I didn't miss him I'd be lying. But that night opened my eyes to something new.. A new Harry in fact. A uncontrollable Harry who wouldn't be able to take care of me.
And never in my life have I been so utterly disappointed.
"Aron?"
I look up at the door way as Jason walks in with a envelope in hand.
"How is the studying going?" He asks with a smile on his face.
I wasn't able to look away from the deep red envelope in his hand. "Good.. What's that?"
A grin fills his face & he hands it over. "It's from your dad."
I knew what was inside that present like slip of paper & it still made me anxious just looking at it. This little card was going to bring me back to a place I had to force myself to stay away from.
"They're holding the wedding at your dad's lake house?"
"Yeah." I sigh & push myself off of the couch where I've been sitting for what feels like 5 hours..
Jason grabs me by the waist & pulls me against his cheating giving me a hug. I hug him back but I feel nothing. I look to the side as his heart beat thumps against my ear & fight back the urge to cry.
I miss Harry. I miss everything about him. His touch, his smell, that skip in my heart he'd give me just looking at me.
"You okay?" Jason's voice brings me out of the gut wrenching walk down memory lane.
"Yes, uh, just thinking about my dad." I push a smile into my lips even though my heart frowned so deeply I'm surprised I didn't fall apart in his arms.
"Okay, well, lunch?" He looks so happy, so glad that I'm with him right now.
Even though I don't want to be deep inside.
"Yes." I force back my feelings & grasp hold of the mask I've put on permanently. "Lunch sounds great, babe."
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So many people walked around with wine glasses in their hands & their pretty dresses. My father's wedding was nothing but a excuse for them to act as if they actually are somebody. They come here, talk to a lot of people, & call themselves popular.
I walk around alone, glancing at everyone with their fake smiles & unbelievable facades as they mingle. A glass of wine sat in my hand & I tip it up poring the remaining amount down my throat. As quickly as it was gone I grabbed another & begin to down it as well.
It was a decent day actually, good to hold a outside wedding. The wind blew softly & the breeze was sweet. I stop & close my eyes, letting my face be brushed with the gentle touch of Mother Nature as she grazed the earth.
I found myself on the dock looking out at the lake, it was beginning to transition into fall & a rare Leaf would float across the water. My heels clacked on the wood bellow my feet as I made my way to the edge, all I wanted was to see myself in the water below.
"Long time no see."
I stop in my place & almost choke as that voice sinks in. That voice I know too well. That voice I loved so much. Still love so much. He's here... I mean why wouldn't he be? I guess I still hadn't let it sink in, I refused to allow myself to think of that though. And now I'm being forced with it.
It takes me a minute to turn around & face him, but when I do, tears automatically come to my eyes. All I could hear in my head was my subconscious telling me to keep it together.
I choke back my feelings & make the corners of my red lips curve up. "H-hi Harry."
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TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH HUH?
I'm going to be ending this book soon guys.... I'm really sorry. But my life is changing dramatically & writing a fanfic just isn't what I need to be doing now. My 20th birthday is coming up & I'm getting married in a couple days.... So I guess it's time for me to grow up. Haha but I will end this officially & I hope you guys enjoy it. So the next part I post will be my last... Thank you all so much.
