Only Fools|| Boyxboy

coming out...ish

whenever beau is alone with ellis, he feels like he's in some far off world where's he's accepted and loved.

but then he leaves, and the crushing reality of exactly who he is, seeps in.

like now. devontae is going off, again, about ellis and their championship win. he's pissed it's not them. they deserved that title. why did the faggot get everything?

and beau just sat there and let him say that. he sat there and did his best to ignore austin's pointed, disappointed stares.

and beau's heart broke because he knew ellis deserved to be stood up for. beau told ellis he loved him, but he couldn't even defend his name when the time came?

and that's when beau really realized the crushing weight of how much he really did not deserve ellis hayes.

later, after devontae's rant, austin sided up to beau's locker and stared at him.

beau rolled his eyes at the other boy. "what the fuck are you doing, nigga. quit hovering over me."

austin positioned himself in full view of beau. "i swear to god if you don't stand up for your fucking boyfriend next time, i will. and then i'll tell him what kind of homophobic, closeted piece of shit you are. then, i'll get him to dump your sorry ass and date me instead."

that got beau's attention and he turned his body to the ass in front of him. "stay the fuck out of me and ellis's business. and what makes you think he'd go with you, anyway? he left you for me. think about that long and hard." he said in a hushed tone, paranoid someone might hear.

austin glared hatefully at beau. "besides your looks, i don't know what the fuck he sees in you. and anyway, we weren't really together in the first place. but this time i won't let him go so easily. he thinks you have charm? that's only cause he hasn't seen me in full action. watch your fucking back, beau taylor."

both boys shared one last harsh glare before austin turned and walked away. beau angrily shut his locker and started towards his next class.

however, because he was so angry, he passed the classroom door and kept walking til he was clear out of the school building. he walked to his car and got in, throwing his school stuff carelessly in the back.

he sent a quick text on his phone before peeling out of the parking lot.

he needed to blow off some steam.

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"i'm gay."

it was a relief to say that. like a heavy burden had been lifted off his chest. even though it was only one person, it alleviated so much weight that beau felt he could breathe just a little bit more.

"what?" the person he was speaking to, daisy, his long time friend with benefits, asked stunned. "what did you just say?"

beau hurried to explain. "well, i don't really call myself gay. but, i'm definitely getting dick from my boyfriend like, all the time. and, i definitely enjoy it."

daisy stared at him stunned and blinked, their red-rimmed eyes hazy with confusion. "so you're bi?" she managed to say blearily.

beau took another drag of the homemade joint before responding. "you know, i don't really know. pussy is pretty good, but I definitely prefer dick- well ellis's dick. I haven't tried with any other boy and don't really want to."

daisy, sitting beside him, tried again. "so... your pan?"

beau stared at her for a moment too long. "what? i don't even know what the hell that means."

"it means that y- ugh forget it. i'm not high enough for this shit."

beau laughed and took a longer drag this time. "unreal right? me with a boyfriend. getting it in the ass and giving it in the ass, too. who the fuck would've thought."

she laughed too loudly. "not me. last time we spoke your head was between my legs and the only actual two words we spoke to each other were 'hi' and 'bye.'

beau pouted. "that's not true. i did say thanks for the fuck."

daisy rolled her eyes and giggled. "was i that horrible of a hookup that you had to go experiment with a guy?"

beau shrugged. "nah, it wasn't bad. and anyway, he sorta sprung up on me actually. wasn't expecting him in the slightest."

daisy snorted. "so you're a bottom.. or a top?"

"i'm horny enough for both." beau admitted with a devilish grin

daisy smirked. "is he as big as you?"

"oh my holy fuck, way bigger. he's massive."

"he's fucking hung, then. mind sharing?"

"fuck no, bitch. he's all mine. besides, he's not interested in the female anatomy anyway."

the girl took a long drag before slowly exhaling into the chilly air. "well, that's too bad. he probably just hasn't met me yet. anyway, let's see a picture of this boy that managed to turn your sexuality to a complete 180."

beau pulled out his phone and quickly typed in ellis's name in instagram. embarrassingly, ellis's name was the first to pop up in beau's recent searches. because of beau's paranoia, beau and ellis didn't follow each other, but beau was constantly stalking his boyfriend.

beau knew that it was unnecessary to take such precautions, and he knew it bothered ellis, but he just couldn't help but worry.

beau clicked on ellis's profile and smiled as his beautiful boyfriend filled the screen. ellis really was gorgeous, and clearly by his likes and comments, other people thought so as well.

beau frowned when he noticed the same guy like and comment under all ellis photos. he'd have to check that guy out later.

he passed the phone to daisy and beamed as she cooed and awed over ellis's photos.

"wow beau. he's gorgeous. he could be a model."

"his body is sculpted like a god, I'm so fucking lucky, man."

daisy nodded in agreement. "yeah, treat him right. you won't find another like him."

"i know."

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no ellis in this chapter :/
I know I just updated, but I won't be able to update next week because I'll be without WiFi for a few days during Christmas time. But don't fret, the next chapter is already completed and waiting to be uploaded after I come back.
Love, Chess