Only Fools|| Boyxboy

Only fools fall

without ellis, the last few months of school dragged along slowly. the first few weeks without ellis were hell. beau felt like dying every day and he cried himself to sleep every night. but slowly, the pain started to lessen until it was a dull ache in the back of his heart.

it helped to know that austin couldn't manage to get back together with ellis. he had tried, rubbing it in beau's face that they'd been hanging out recently, but soon austin stopped mentioning ellis all together and beau knew that he must've been rejected.

that felt good.

beau also stopped speaking to devontae. the boys never really had much in common other than sports. after the season was over, the drifted away and beau was grateful for that.

what seemed like forever later, beau was getting ready for graduation. he'd somehow managed to pull through with honors, graduating seventh in his class of 700. he was positive he only managed that by how vigorously he threw himself into his studies after him and ellis broke up.

the night of, ellis came to see him graduate. they didn't speak, merely smiled at each other from a distance, but beau knew ellis came to support him since nobody else would. ellis was kind like that.

beau went to ellis' graduation and sat with his parents, chatting amiably as if nothing had happened between them two. beau was grateful ellis' parent didn't treat him differently.

again, the boys didn't speak to each other, and beau left before ellis could come greet his parents. the wounds were still too fresh.

beau moved out of his father's the week after he graduated. he moved down to the college he was attending, a state away, and settled into an apartment on campus.
beau hadn't spoken to his father since he left home and didn't plan on reaching out to him ever again. as far as he cared, his parents were dead to him.

summer training was so vigorous that beau didn't have time to think of ellis. before he knew it, fall had arrived and classes had begun. beau had worked so hard over the summer that he got a starting position on the team as a mere freshman. his life was starting to look up.

it had been six months since the boys had broken up. it didn't hurt nearly as bad anymore, but the wound was still sore. beau wondered what ellis was up to. was he enjoying college as much as beau was? had he met someone else? was he happy? did he miss beau at all? beau wondered if he'd run into ellis on the field. it was possible their schools would play each other. beau didn't know how he'd react if that happen.

beau was meant for college. for the first time in his life- besides his time with ellis- he felt like he could breathe. because of his newfound freedom away from his father and small, conservative town, beau decided to do a little experimenting. he'd had a few flings with girls on campus and they were alright, but none felt like what he had with ellis.

that was until he stumbled into jake.

jake was no ellis, but he made beau's heart beat a mile a minute and he was a great kisser. jake was fun while he lasted, but eventually that too ended.

it was good for beau though because he came to realize that his sexuality was maybe less complicated than he made it out to be. he liked both boys and girls. it was relieving to realize, but even more relieving to say out loud.

beau told all his college friends and was shocked to realize that nobody really cared. homophobia was nonexistent on campus where everybody was hooking up with everybody.

it was nice to finally come out of the closet. he'd been a fool to stay in for so long. ellis would be proud if this new beau. ellis wouldn't have broken up with this beau.

beau had been a fool to let ellis go. he hadn't forgotten about the boy who changed everything. he never would forget about ellis. ellis would always have a piece of beau's heart.

but maybe, eventually, there'd be room for someone else. Or, maybe there'd only ever be room for ellis in beau's heart and maybe they'd find their way back to each other.

Because though most of the time first loves don't work out, sometimes they do.

But only fools try again.

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THAT'S A WRAP! That's the end. There will be no epilogue, unless you want to consider this the epilogue. I like how it ended. I think beau deserved an ending like that. Anyway, the ending is ambiguous because I wanted y'all to decide how you wanted it to end. If you want them together, be my guest. If you think they should move on and weren't meant to be, that's fine too. This ending was far unlike my original one, but I think I like this one better. There are so many more possibilities to imagine.

Anyway, I came to love these dumbass boys. I think I'll miss them. I'm not sure if I'll create another story. Maybe I'll do a girlxgirl story. Never done one of those before. Might be fun. Idk, this was stressful to write (as y'all know because I took a long ass hiatus without telling anybody). Maybe I should take a break and gather my thoughts before jumping into another plot. Might edit this (I won't) because it has a lot of mistakes and what the hell was I thinking putting this story in lower case. I'm a dumbass. Ugh. Never let me do that again. Anyway, if you enjoyed this, let me know. I'll miss you faithful readers. Follow me to see life updates! I'm not the type of author who is too good to follow you back. I probably will- probably.

I truly hoped you enjoyed this story. Thanks for reading!

Love,
Chessa Chaé