Turnaround

Part 35

After Seth took Dean to the hospital he was driving back to Roman's place quickly. He had to answer so many questions and lie about them so Roman wouldn't get into trouble. He found out in the car and almost crashed it that Dean was raped by the Samoan. Seth pulled into the driveway of Roman's home and unlocked the doors and tried to get out but he forgot he still had his seat belt on. He cursed and un-clipped it before running to the front door that was wide open. He panicked and looked around frantically. "Roman!" He yelled out.

Seth ran into Roman's room then made his way into the joined bathroom. He saw the Samoan man at the toilet swallowing pills like crazy. He ran to him and grab at the bottle of pills. Roman yanked them back and fell over. He got up as fast as he could, he was already feeling out of it. He was swallowing different medications. "Roman! I told you not to do anything stupid!" Seth reached for the container of pills but Roman moved back and fell into the tub where the knobs were. His body turned them and the shower head turned on, letting cold water hit him hard.

Seth got into the tub and smacked the bottle out of Roman's hand. The bottle fell into the tub and the pills fell out, going down the drain. "You're so fucking stupid at times." Seth had tears rolling down his cheeks rapidly. He opened Roman's mouth and stuck two fingers down them, making the older man throw up some of the pills. Roman coughed and slowly sunk down into sitting position. The cold water got onto his whole body now. Seth took out his phone and called 911 quickly.

Roman eyes were rolling as he tried to focus on Seth's face. When Seth hung up the phone he grabbed at Roman's face and shook his head slowly. "Do you not understand how I fucking care about you? Why didn't you listen to me! I said don't do anything stupid. Roman, I love you, Dean loves you, so many people love you, you beautiful fucker." Seth shook Roman to keep his eyes open. "Don't you fucking die on me. Don't you fucki-" Seth trembled and pulled Roman into him to hug him tightly. Roman tried to hug back, he heard Seth, he actually heard him. But everything was just slowing around him, and spinning. He closed his eyes and held onto the smaller man.

"Seth.."

"Roman, stay awake, please.." Seth rocked them back and forth slowly as his chest shook and tears fell.

Roman opened his eyes slowly and let his vision adjust itself to where he was now. He tried to talk but his throat was dry and sore. He looked down and saw an IV in his wrist. Seth saved him. He really saved him. He tried to speak again but the only thing that came out croak. He remembered getting in a few hours ago and the doctors rushing him and sticking tubes in his nose and down his throat. His stomach felt weird after being pumped. He remembered seeing Jimmy and Jey getting told to get out of the room for freaking out.

After all of that. Here he was still alive. His eyes teared up when he thought about everything. He just couldn't let go, he could not let go of anything. 20 plus years of pain that he was holding. It was bound to hit him hard later in life. And this where the climax ended. Tears fell down his cheeks as he looked around the room quickly. His eyes were blurred by the tears. A figure came in so he blinked a few times to see clearly. Dean was limping to him with his Hospital gown on. His face was red and tears were falling down.

"Why did you fucking do that?" Was the first thing that came from Dean's mouth. "Why did you- why would you even try that." Dean got to Roman's bed and shook his head. "Do you fucking know how much I love you? Do you get that, that was a stupid idea?" Roman couldn't speak and he didn't have anything to say anyway so he just stared up at Dean as his tears blurred his vision again. Dean pulled at his hair and looked away, his body shaking.

Roman reached slowly and grabbed at Dean's gown, tugging at it weakly. Dean looked back at Roman and wiped his eyes. "Roman. I don't know if I can do this anymore." Roman's eyes went wide and his lips opened but Dean shook his head slowly. "No stop it. You need real help. You've been holding all of this pain in for so many years and it's to the point w-where no one can help you, no one with skills that is. We don't know what to do Ro."

Dean closed his eyes and let out a shaky breath. "You need to check yourself in to rehab."

Roman's mouth formed and a cough came out then finally with a shout he spoke. "No!" His voice was hoarse.

"You're not the same Roman I knew and if we can't help you then what? I can't go back home with you like this. I cannot even sleep in that fucking bed anymore."

"Baby- Dean. You're the help I need. You're all I n-"

"No." Dean interrupted. "No don't do that. Don't do this to me. If you won't check yourself in..I'm going to have to leave you. And I don't want to do that..I really want us to be together Roman. But if you can't try for me then I can't try for you." Dean turned and made his way out of the room and Roman sat there with a shocked face, the tears never stopped either.

It didn't take long for everyone else to come in. Dolph, Jimmy, Jey, Nattie. Tyson, Naomi,Seth, and even Randy. Jimmy and Jey rushed up to Roman's bed and gave him a gentle hug. Jimmy got tears on Roman's gown and moved back, sniffling. "Roman, I was so scared. Why the hell did you do this man? That wasn't the way to go. You don't leave family. You do not leave family behind." Jimmy rubbed at his eyes.

Jey looked down at Roman and didn't know where to began. "Roman..You know I love you. You're my favorite cousin. And I just-" He rubbed at his face and looked away. "I can't do this. I just c-can't." Jey walked out of the room, he couldn't do this. It was too much.

Jimmy sighed. "Look at them." Roman looked over to Seth first and saw the blood shot eyes. Then he looked at everyone else before looking back to Jimmy. "They all rushed here for you. For you man." Jimmy ran his fingers through his hair and looked away. "I can't fucking believe the nerve of Sika and Patricia."

"I'm so sorry guys." Roman whispered. Seth came closer and stood on the side of the bed with some papers. Roman squinted at the words then read it. He saw Dean's signature there and a doctor's signature. It was for a mental clinic. The Convenant Clinic.

"Roman. We all think this is the thing that will help you get it all out and get professional care and help. We can't force you into it, you're an adult. But..if you don't there's a lot you will lose. And you already lost one which is yourself. Do you want to lose Dean next?"

Roman shook his head slowly and let out a shaky breath. "No. I can't lose Dean."

"Then you know what to do." Seth replied softly. He got a pen out of his pocket and smiled. "Do this for the people you love." Roman took the pen slowly and signed the line where it said patient. Seth turned the pages and Roman signed a few more times before giving the pen back to Seth and looking away. He was losing it inside, he didn't want to do this but Dean gave him a choice. A easy choice but it was really hard to choose. Of course the choice he would pick would be Dean but the thought of going into rehab and unleashing himself scared him so much.

But Dean was his everything. So Dean was his choice. What he did to him was not okay. He would do anything for Dean. He wanted to fix everything that was wrong. He hoped Dean loved him enough to stay and help rebuild it all. He was lucky enough that Dean didn't just straight up and leave and never say a damn word to him again. Most of all, he was lucky that Seth saved him. Seth, the one who only at first showed that he was only out for himself. Seth the one who tried to ruin what he had with Dean. Yeah that Seth. Roman looked over to Seth and reached out for his hand, taking it and squeezing it slightly. He didn't know what he would do to thank Seth. But he just knew that Seth, well he deserved so much great things. He deserved the world.

"Don't worry about it big guy. We're even." Seth whispered.

Even? Roman wondered. Even from Seth doing all those things to him as teens. Even from shoving relationships into Roman's face. Every single fucked up thing basically. And Seth did so much he apologized for, but this? This was the best thing ever. He saved Roman's life and Roman couldn't be happier.