An extraordinary story also known as my life

July 11th 1995

Chapter 4

The day when Lily's mom died was the worst day of my life. Lily spent the whole day at the hospital, as she had done during the past weeks and I was there with her. She had told me that I didn't need to be there, that it was probably just going to be a normal day when nothing would happen. It broke my heart to hear those words come out of her mouth. She didn't know that this would be the day, and of course I couldn't tell her. And even if I could have, I wouldn't have. I had learnt my lesson, knowing when someone would die didn't make anything better.

I sat next to Lily in her mother's room. We were completely silent and we had been for the past hours. The doctor had told us as we came this morning that things didn't look very good.

"It's going to be okay Lily. I promise," I said as I saw a tear fall from her eye.

My words were completely empty and did not have any meaning at all.

"I don't think it will, Marcus. Mom isn't going to be okay, so things won't be okay, ever again."

As I heard her words several things broke inside of me. She was just a small, innocent, 11 year old, girl. This wasn't supposed to happen to people like her. She didn't deserve this. No one did, especially not Lily. She was the kindest, most caring person on earth.

I didn't know when Lily's mom was going to die. It could be in a minute or an hour, I didn't know. All I knew was that I did not want Lily to be alone when it happened.

Right then, on that day, I did one of the things I regret most in my life. I left Lily, on the moment when she needed me the most. It was because of a silly visit to the bathroom. But, as I came out of the bathroom, I felt it.

The pain of someone fighting death. I knew within a second who it was.

Lily's mom.

She wasn't supposed to die yet, she did definitely have unfinished business on earth. She was supposed to take care of Lily and watch her grow up.

The pain I felt was stronger than usual, so I went back to the bathroom, I didn't want anybody to see me. I knew I could just walk to Lily and look at her and the pain would stop, but I didn't want it to stop. I deserved to feel the pain. If Lily was going to feel the sorrow of a lost parent, I absolutely deserved some pain too. I knew it wasn't my fault, but it just felt fair.

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Author's note:

I cried while writing this chapter too. I need to stop writing sad chapters, I obviously can't handle it.

I'm sorry that these last two chapters have been really sad and I'm going to try to make the next chapter a bit happier. I know this chapter is short, but it was still necessary.

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~ Hanna