I love you but I just can't tell you everything (a supercorp fanfic)

Im dying help me

•~Lena's point of view~•
I sit leaning against the sofa and everything is dizzy, the only thing that's clear to me is blood that is covering the floor around me, and the blood isn't just mine, it's Kevin's the guy who barley knew me but died for me, who died to allow me to escape. I'm in pain, so much pain I'm dying, the knife wound in my stomach is hell, I feel like shit, but that makes sense right. The girl I like may die, she lied to me for a long time, a guy who I barley knew gave up his life so I could live, everyone thinks I'm missing only Alex knows I'm alive, and I'm safe and I'm in Kara's apartment. So yeah I got my reasons to feel like this. I'm still bleeding and everything is spinning and every second the spinning gets faster and faster and everything blends together causing a colour explosion and I can't take it I want to scream stop but what exactly would I be screaming at? I'm dying and I don't want to. I don't want to die. No one does but I, i know I have more to give to the world I know that I can change this city, that I can clear the Luther name, but I can't do any of it if I die. And it's that realisation that not every in life is going to like me, some people will hate me and will try to hurt me and destroy me, I can't have the love of everyone, but I can earn it, or at least I can attempt to earn it, to make people see I'm not just a scientist who is rich, who's brother is superman's number one enemy, I want people to see me for me, I want people to see me as a human who isn't perfect, but who tried and will always try to do the right thing. And I hope that is what Kevin saw in my, i hope he saw the goodness and decided it was worth his life, so I'm going to try to not let him down, to let his sacrifice actually mean something. Man that's a lot of promises, and expectations and stuff I have to hold up to, but I can try. I can try. I will always try. Because that's the best a person can do, try, try there hardest and if they fail who cares, they try again, and again, and again until they prove to everyone that can do it, no matter how many tries it takes, they will not quit, they will be strong, courageous and brave, they won't care about other people opinions, they will get back up and prove to everyone that they are worth it, they have a place in this earth, on this planet, that they are a important being. And that's what I've been missing. This whole time. Kevin gave his life so I could live, I can't let him down, I will prove to him that I can do this, that his sacrifice wasn't in vain that he made the right choice...
"Lena," I hear Alex's voice say snapping me out of my train of thought,
"Alex." I say but it comes out in pain and followed by coughs,
"I'm coming," Alex says and she opens the door and runs down to where I lay, blood covering the floor, me covered In mine and Kevin's blood.
"Lena stay with me you will be okay." Alex says but I can feel myself fading out and back in and out again, I'm trying to stay strong, but I'm so weak it's basically impossible, and then that's it I completely collapse, and everything around me goes black and Alex's voice disappears into the darkness,

•~Alex's point of view~•
"Lena. Lena. Wake up stay with me Lena" I say shaking Lena's unconscious body, I see the blood covering her, the floor and now my hands, I see where she was stabbed and I put my hand in it attempting to stop the bleeding, it hard to tell how much blood she has lost, all I know is that I have to get her back to the deo, but what is the easiest way? I grab my phone out of my pocket turn it on and I call jonn,
"Hey I've found Lena and she's out in Kara's apartment please come get both us as quickly as possible," I say and I hang up the call and just hold onto Lena and lean my head onto her praying that she will be fine, that Kara will be fine, that everything will go back to normal. But everything is so messed up I don't even know what normal is anymore. But I kind help but find peace in that, I like that's it's unexpected, I like the feel of what am I going to do in these situations that could lead to life or death, I like being on edge, I like being a badass. It's like Barry Allen, the flash once said, I'm a badass in every universe, and that's awesome. Soon jonn lands in the apartment and picks us up,
"Alex what happened" jonn asks pointing to the blood,
"Lena said she was stabbed, and how she escaped with the help of a guy who's name I can't remember, but the guy died so she could live, but that's all the information she gave, once she wakes up we  have to get her to the deo right now" I say and jonn nods his head and picks us both up and he supports Lena while I hand onto his hand, I don't worry about being dropped or him accidentally letting go, I trust jonn, he's basically my father, and I will always and forever trust him.  Soon we land back in the deo, to be honest there is no feeling like the feeling of flying. The wind blowing past, seeing the world from a new angle, it really does make a person think about the possibility's of the universe. I call over a med bay officer who places Lena down and wheels her away probably to do some advanced surgery on her and to stop the bleeding and make sure she wakes up. I guess now I'll have to wait. And it's painful, I'm just waiting. It feels like I've been waiting weeks, honestly I've been waiting my whole life, I'm not sure what, maybe a chance for a family, maybe for a chance to lead the deo, maybe for a chance to go back to med school, maybe for a chance to be the best, to be better then kara, to show that you don't need a cape and powers to be a hero, I guess that's what I've been trying to show the world from the moment I joined the deo, that anyone can be a hero we just have to choose to go down the right path, and to help and protect, but also stop the evil, my personal favourite  part. And I guess that's why I joined the deo In the first place, I know there was always a risk, I knew that since the day I started, I could die on a mission, I could die because of a attack, I almost died when my plane almost blew up, and that's the same night kara showed her powers to the world. She showed them to save me. And now I can't let her, or Lena, or anyone she loves down. That s on her suit, it stands for hope, help and compassion for all, that's what she has always said. And I... I think I lives up to what it supposed to mean, you see that symbol and become inspired, want to do things you never thought possible, I guess it almost stands for freedom, and rights and the ability to do what you want no matter how many people are trying to stop you, and I think that's so important.
"Agent Danvers, Miss Luther is fine she just woke up, you may want to go and talk to her" another agent says as she comes over, I nod my head and wonder off I'm the direction of the med bay, but suddenly I stop, and something catches my eye.