I love you but I just can't tell you everything (a supercorp fanfic)

What i have to say

•~Lena's point of view~•
I sit up, nothing is spinning anymore, meaning I'm fine, but I'm in a room, connected to wires, and to my left I see supergirl, Kara, out with it, connected to wires, I can't believe it, I can't bare to look at her. And suddenly Alex walks in,
"Lena your awake, okay, I need for you to explain everything that happened" Alex says and I nod my head,
"Can we go somewhere else first please, I can't bare it, seeing her" I say and Alex unplugs some of the wires,
"Let's go" she says and she puts her hand out and I grab on and clamber out of bed and we walk down the corridor and stop leaning on a balcony, over looking the cortex.
"I woke up in a cage, enveloped in darkness, then around 8 men showed themselves and one came into the cage and stabbed me, then left me, and i thought I was going to die, I thought I would never see kara or tell her how I feel about her. I thought I would rot away in that cage, until a guy came along, and he told me he would help me escape, and I asked him why, and he told me some stuff, some Insane stuff," I say and suddenly I begin to shake, my eyes start blinking uncontrollably and my hand goes up I'm unable to control my libs, I collapse into the floor, shaking and shaking and shaking again,
"Omg Lena, lena hey, hey your having a seizure," Alex's voicesays, I can only see blurs but I can make out Alex's voice,
"It's calming down, your will be fine, trust me" Alex says holding up my head, my sight returns to normal, and I feel all my muscles coming
Back, I sit up,
"Go homes and rest, right now" Alex says and I look at her,
"But I haven't finished explaining what happened" I say but Alex is clearly having none of it,
"I will call you later, and take one of those every hour once you wake up until I tell you stop" she says passing me a tub filled with little white pills,
"Go home, ill call someone to pick you up and take you home" Alex says and I just nod my head, I can tell that nothing I say will change Alex's mind, so why bother trying, shit that's exactly what I promised myself I wouldn't do, but I guess Alex has the right idea, and is telling the truth, so may as well agree.
"Okay fine, I'll go home, please ring me soon, I want to tell someone how I feel and about Kevin and what he did" I say and Alex nods her head and takes me outside the building and into a car, I feel so terrible but like i want to talk, but I almost died, it's a feeling, a experience I have never felt before, I can't ever forget it, that feeling and that sudden realisation I got while 2 inches away from my death, I just... I'm not sure anymore. I arrive home and clamber our the taxi and upstairs into my apartment, I lock the door and lean against it, outside I can see the city, it's night, and I just listen, I can hear police sirens, family's playing with there windows open, I can hear the buzz of people as they walk down the street, I can hear birds as they fly by and around national city, I've never stopped and listened to this before, I haven't ever really appreciated and I wish I had, it's so beautiful, and it's my city, I can do anything in this city, this city is home to supergirl, is home to catco, home to Luther corp, is my home, is everyone's home. I close the window and sit on my bed, I lie back and I attempt to sleep but for some odd reason I actually can't, so I sit... and I cry, I cry until I fall asleep.
I wake up still lying on my bed, I grab my phone and check the time, 4:40am. Okay so I got a good couple of hours sleep. I get up and start wondering around to my kitchen and just open the fridge and I take out a bottle of orange juice, I don't bother to pour myself a glass, instead I just drink right out the bottle, Alex said I have to take those pills every hour, so when it gets to 5 I'll take them, I sit down in the sofa, and flick on the tv, I'm not planning to watch it, I guess I just want some back ground noise, it goes onto some stupid soap opera, but as I flick through the channels there isn't anything else interesting, hang on, what is this, it's the news and a video of the police department, the rolling titles at the bottom say Lena Luther found,
"Yes Lena Luther has been found, alive and safe, she was able to escape her cell and get away and she is fine, no more questions" the officer on the tv says and I can hear reporters in the background asking so many more questions.
"And In other news where is Supergirl" the news presenter asks, and I switch it off, I know where she is, I know what is wrong, I know who she is, I know there's a chance she won't survive, and I can't bare to think about it, so turning off news on her is probably a good idea. I check my phone time again and it's 5, so I open the pill box, take one out and put in my mouth and swallow it with orange juice. Ewww it tastes so horrid, it takes like puke, but I take it anyway, so then I just sit around, moving around my apartment, taking those pills every hour, and going through about 3 bottles of orange juice. And then Alex finally calls back, I pick it up,
"Alex hey," I say
"Lena okay I got 20 minutes before I start work, well I'm already at work but I'm just getting ready" Alex says and I try to think of a way to make this story short,
"Well they guy who saved me, his name was Kevin, and he told me that the organisation used to be a good agency, that they stopped criminals and got justice served rightly, and they worked with the government, the deo, the police, they all trusted them, then Kevin said that there leader, black star, went insane he started kidnapping the realities to already arrested criminals and wanted to kill people and hold them for bounty, and it's what he did to me. So then Kevin took me down a really dark corridor of which he said leads to where the government would often enter, meaning that nobody goes down there, and Kevin started opening the door, and then it all happened really fast, I heard him yell my name, and he jumped in front of me and he got shot, and he, he died, meaning I had time to run from whoever was chasing me.  So ran to Kara's apartment and you know the story from there" I say breathing heavily barley being able to speak about Kevin's sacrifice,
" Okay... Lena I'm sorry, please comeback to the deo we need to talk In person and I need your help to identify who Kevin is in the video clips, if that's okay" Alex says, and yeah that's fine, I should be able to recognise him, after all he saved me, and I saw him.
"Okay umm I'll be there soon" I say
"Cool I'm sending a car to pick you up it will arrive in 20 minutes so yeah let's do this" Alex says and I smile and hand up the call, now I know where I recognised the deo from, I  gather some stuff together, like my phone, keys, purse and put them all into my bag. I open my apartment door and step out, and I go down and wait for my car to arrive.