Just had a mental/emotional break down in the orchestra room at my school...
I had an argument with my best friend that was entirely my fault because my stupid ass got jealous. She sat with some of her other friends at lunch today and when I offered to sit with her there she just says "no no it's fine. you wouldn't know any of them" so I got upset and wouldn't talk to her for the rest of the day....
I'm an idiot.
And then she came into the room to figure out what was wrong and I couldn't tell her. I got upset and scared that she'd be mad at me and kept saying "I can't. No. I'm sorry"
And she kept saying "you wanted to talk to me. So please talk." And multiple times she tried to just walk out but I'd stop her and say "wait no no I'm sorry"
And then I'd start to try and say something and just say "it's stupid."
And she said "is it really that big a deal?"
But the thing is, it's not a big deal. That's why I couldn't bring myself to talk about it...
And then I started crying.
So she eventually walked out after I told her nevermind just forget about it and she hugged me.
So yeah....
I have a horrendous headache, I had my first "fight" with my best friend, and I don't want to leave this room because I can't stop crying.
It's not even that big of a deal and I literally can't fucking stop
