Boy Meets D.Evil

1.20

I'd love to lay in the bed some more, but I have to see where's Nari. 

I ran outside with Hana asking where I'm going but I didn't stop to answer. 

Nari's house appeared in front of me but... it's ruined. The upper part is mostly missing, it looks like it was set on fire and everything inside of it is burnt. Is there a point in trying to find anyone? 

What about Seokjin? Is he fine?

I knocked frantically on his front door but no one answered. All the lights are off, are they outdoors? No one's in the backyard too... 

"Where were you?", Hana asked in a raspy voice when I returned and rubbed her eyes as if she was asleep while I was gone. I sat on the bed next to her and finally caught some air after running around the neighbourhood

"I wanted to see what happened to Nari...", my response was followed by dead silence and we let it stay that way for a while. Until I felt like sharing my thoughts and hearing Hana's

"Honestly, I think that Seokjin is innocent"

"Me too"

"I'm having a hard time believing one of my friends is a murderer but it feels good hearing you say that"

"I know it must be hard but don't forget that we made a deal"

"Yeah... I never got to ask how did you end up hanging back there?", Hana's palm caressed the red line around her neck and I heard her swallow hard, worry written all over her face

"I couldn't see who it was"

"We shouldn't get split up again. We CAN'T get split up again and if we ever find the person who did this to you..."

"You sound mad...", do I? Well, I do feel furious, vengeful and my head overheating. For some reason, I'm even more overprotective of Hana. Especially when she's looking so innocently at me, it's like she's telling me she trusts me and expects me to do as I think

"Hana"

"Yoongi"

"I really like you"

The concept of time itself is confusing. So, imagine if there were places where our relative understanding of time wasn't valid. Where we couldn't count on time as we know it. It may seem insignificant because we're so comfortable and used to it that we're unaware of the danger which is not relying on time. 

What else is awful to the human body? Perhaps being vulnerable and helpless. Not trusting your senses. Participating in a race where you're the only one with a disadvantage. The list goes on and the worst part is that such a reality existed for Hana, in her dreams. These are her own words from the notebook and no wonder she hated sleep. I still have no clue what made her have such nightmares but I feel like I'm about to find out. 

I closed the notebook and everything around me changed, just as I expected. I'm still sitting on the floor with holes in it, the walls are filthy and the air is disgusting, eerie and so dark. All of it is creating a perfect setting for a monster to chase me or something, I'm feeling uneasy and like danger is lurking. Speaking of monsters, someone's strong presence filled the hall. A tall skeleton-like nun with dark piercing eyes stood in front of me with clear dissatisfaction of our encounter written all over her face. Even though her features are overexaggerated and not the ones of a human being, I somehow recognize the person

"No sitting on the floor. Go back to your class", is all the nun said and proceeded to creepily wander down the hall until she disappeared in sick, grey fog. Am I in school? Never thought I'd end up here again. Especially this way. I guess I should check out my classroom. 

It's as loud as I remember it. No one's in their seat, everyone's shouting over each other and no one seems to be bothered by the ruined school. It wasn't wonderful in the first place but the change is evident. 

Someone pat my shoulder and gave it a firm squeeze

"Good to see I'm not alone", said the person in a pretty cheerful voice, quite the opposite to the atmosphere

"Namjoon, how did you get here?"

"I was about to ask you the same. Seems like we're visiting Hana's memories. With right actions, we could help her remember her death"

"Since when are you on our side?", I asked and furrowed my brows. His wild guess sounds accurate and convincing for someone who has no idea how he got here and tried to separate me from Hana at some point. Why should I trust him now?   

"Well, don't you wanna leave this place?"

"Of course I do"

"Exactly. Now, for some reason, you forgot everything about her so let me tell you a few things", I felt like it was going to take a while so we leaned against desks and I focused on every single word of his

"Hana went through a lot of injustice in her lifetime, her death was by far the worst one. That's why I suppose this is meant to show us what she had to go through every single day. It's like she's spiteful and bitter, to some extent I understand her actions but I sincerely hope no one gets hurt while we're here"

"Is the rest of the group also here?", we looked around and noticed each one of our friends sitting away from each other as if we're all strangers. There's Jungkook, Taehyung, Hoseok and Jimin. Wait... what about Seokjin? Why did he disappear out of nowhere? And Nari is really gone... and Hana? Where is she? 

"Hi, Joonie!", Hana greeted Namjoon suddenly. We were both surprised since we didn't notice her enter the classroom. He greeted her back and to my shock, she brought his face closer and pecked his lips. I want to die on the spot from jealousy, my chest feels heavy and I clenched my fists in anger. Even so... she's smiling widely. I can't be mad at her or Namjoon. She looks happy with him, I should support them. 

I wanted to forget it and move on but something overtook my mind and I felt tingly in my heart. Something's too familiar, it's like their action brought back some memories. I rushed to the bathroom which looks like shit, as it did before so I didn't pay much attention to it, and washed my face with cold water to put out the fire. A headache is killing me, I'm trying to dig something out I don't even know myself but I'm so sure there's something regarding Hana. What is it?!

The image is blurry and I can't distinguish faces except for Hana's. It's her, walking away from me with a boy. She turned around to give me one last smile which looked weak and more like she was hurt than happy. The next thing I see is her crying in her bed, I'm sitting next to her and clearly heard my words:

"Did he hurt you?", the next time I asked, I raised my voice and a neck vein popped out

"I asked if he hurt you!"

And that's it. What did I just see? Is that what really happened? 

If she's currently dating Namjoon then I'm sure he wouldn't make her cry like that. Neither would I, even though I acted like a jerk but she was clearly upset over someone else. Huh, why did I even justify my behaviour if she never chose to be with me in the first place?

Isn't it heartbreaking that I forgot everything about Hana when she obviously means so much to me? So much that I'm butthurt and jealous of Namjoon, so much that I was capable of murdering someone for her sake. How could I forget everything except for my feelings? Were they that strong? Well... they still are. My heart aches, I haven't cried in a while or felt this pathetic. 

Why...

Why do I feel guilty of her death?

     

Happy HOLOdays! Rest well, eat cake, worship Satan, and stream DNA. 

Have fun while 2018 still lasts, we all had our ups and downs so keep your chinny chin up and look forward to what 2019 brings! Assbeating? Good, we all love a good spanking anyway.

I'm saving money for RPG Maker and expansions, I learned a lot during the free trial and I PROMISE, CROSS MY ROTTEN HEART, that I'm going to make a Boy Meets D.Evil video game, it'll take a few years maybe but I'm on the grind 8)