One Person Can Make Such A Difference- Josh Hutcherson FanFic

Josh Hutcherson FanFic Part 10

In love with me?! What? We're friends? Aren't we? The more I thought about it the more I realized how I felt for him. I thought about the multiple times my mind had gone blank and I had been caught staring at him. I thought about how he had been there for me, through all of it, making me feel better. Did I love him? I don't know. 

Love was too strong of a word to explain how I felt for him. I needed him! That was for sure, I couldn't imagine my life with out him! But maybe that's because he was my life now! He was all I could remember, all I knew. It had been at least 5 minutes had passed since he declared his love for me, and his smile had wiped from his face because of my shocked silence. 

"I know, you probably don't feel the same for me, but I needed you to know! Caitlyn?" And he said it again, "I'm falling in love with you!" 

Falling in love with me! The more he said it and the more I thought about it, the more ridicules it sounded. Did I feel the same for him? Was I just over thinking this? No. I don't know! I guess he's technically known me longer than I've known him. But I felt something last night didn't I? I had trusted him ever since I saw him in the hospital! There had always been something about him that intrigued me! 

But did I love him? His eyes were still fixed solidly on my face. I didn't know what to say, so instead I said nothing at all, and looked deep into his eyes in shock. He knew I didn't know what I felt, but even I knew this wouldn't change how he reacted.

He let go of my hands and walked into the bathroom. I knew I couldn't stay in here, I'd upset him, more than I ever thought I would. As I walked out the door I saw Connor opening his door, walking out into the hall way he saw me. I couldn't hold it in any more, leant again the wall, and let all the tears stream down my face. I buried my head in my legs and began to sob.

Connor grabbed my arm, pulled me up and guided me into my room. We sat on the bed, and he held me tightly until I stopped crying. "What happened?" 

"I've fucked everything up! Again!" I was so angry with my self at how I treated Josh. "What do you mean?" He didn't know anything! 

"Josh, I've ruined everything with him!" I looked up to Connor and wiped away the tears from my face. 

"How? I thought he liked you too?" I gave a little giggle, Connor was being so serious, yet he managed to get me to smile. 

"He does, but I'm so fucked up that I didn't know what to say! I don't know if I like him! I mean I can't even remember my age some days, and he expects me to sort out my feelings for him!" I knew it was unfair to blame it on Josh, it was all my fault! Yet again, but I couldn't help it. "I don't know what he expects from me? Connor? Please talk to him?!" 

Connor looked at me in shock. "What? Talk to him about what?" He frowned slightly, but he was open to persuasion. 

"I don't know, just distract him for a few hours? Please!" I knew what I had do to, but Josh couldn't know.

"Why?" He sounded worried but I couldn't tell him my plan, not with the risk of him telling Josh.

"Just, please Connor! I'm begging you, just distract Josh for a few hours! Don't tell him I'm gone, say I'm in my room and I don't want to talk!" I looked directly into his eyes. They were gorgeous, but not a pin prick as good as Josh's. "Please!" 

After two minutes of careful consideration he finally gave in, and agreed to distract Josh. "But what if he doesn't want me to talk to him?" He pointed out a big flaw in the plan. Him and Josh hardly got along, and if Josh was upset there was no chance Connor could distract him! 

"Tell him I have a message, but say you'll only tell him if he plays on the Xbox with you?" I was thinking of any excuse for Connor. "Just make sure he doesn't know I'm gone! Okay?"