Marinas POV
Is it bad to worry about the people who've done you wrong. To live a lifestyle of agony and when you get a taste of freedom began to think what would happen to them? Maybe I'm crazy but leaving my family rubs me the wrong way. They might not have treated me like their own but they are still mine and my only family. Whether I like it or not they need me. I'm not saying I would be their slave again but I definitely don't want to leave them hanging. I want to make sure they'll be fine without me so I can get them out of my head. Oliver doesn't want me to go back even to just visit but he can suck my big toe because I'm heading to the car right now!
If you want to know what's happening with me and mr. emotional the answer is a big fat nothing! I've only been here two days and all he's been trying to do is pamper me and make me up and become all girly and stuff. That's every girls dream right? Wrong! He made me get up really early to go to a foreign place that most people go to get clothes, shoes, and meet people. I heard people talk about it a lot but never actually experienced it. I think it's called a mall but I could be wrong.I wouldn't have minded being there with him if he didn't make me try on clothes nonstop for four hours which included swim suits and lingerie. shudders. I have to say though, that the worst part was the waxing. When I say I got waxed everywhere I mean everywhere.... How do normal girls do this on a daily basis. I just don't understand. Lets just say it was a very silent car ride.
On multiple occasions have I had to remind myself that I was never normal and it takes effort to at least fit in in the slightest but then I had to remind myself that I don't want to be normal. I'm trying to boost my self confidence by telling myself that I'm special and I guess it's working but I still have a long ways to go.I still flinch when people come too close or feel the need to bow down when someone talks to me just because I feel inferior to them. I get weirded out when people do things for me or when I'm shown affection. It's just foreign to me but I'll have to get used to it. I know eventually Oliver is gonna want to kiss me, not that he hasn't tried already, but I eventually want to let him.I want to be his mate but only when I'm ready and when I feel he's ready. Right now I'm not complaining since he been nothing but sweet and attentive but what if he changes. What if he gets tired of me and I'm forced to leave? I need to be ready.I can't have him thinking that I would be nothing without him. He's not my crutch, I can stand alone if I had to.
Pulling up to my ex pack house I notice a pouty alpha mate standing in the driveway waiting to escort me in. The last thing I remembered him saying was how he wasn't coming and if something happened not to come crying to him because all he would say was he told me so.
"Look who showed up" I say as we walk towards the door. He scratched the back his head avoiding to make eye contact with me while mumbling something about alpha business. I quickly roll my eyes and let it go. I had other things to worry about than egotistical alphas. What's going to happen when I walk through this door? I don't know but it's a relief to know I have my mate with me to help me through it.
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When will I get my happy ever after ?
WerewolfMarina is the punching bag of her parents pack. She is a hallow shell of her former self. Broken. The only thing keeping her from ending her life is the possibility of finding her mate. Oliver is alpha of the Black Dust pack. He is a player at hear...
