The words

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by badboredbitch

by badboredbitch

I hate the words
No one would miss me
Including when they come from my mouth
Because it's like I'm fifty different people
In one body
Because I know for a fact
My parents would be sobbing
Wondering what they did wrong
For their babygirl to kill herself
Because I know
My big brothers would sobbing
Watching as the sun sinks
Below the horizon
In my favorite grave yard
Because I know
My best friends would shut themselves out
Be silenced
Mute
Holding onto the best friends necklace
I once wore around my neck
Because I know
My girlfriend
Would cry
Thinking it's her fault
That she couldn't save me
That she wasn't good enough
Because I know
My friends
Would be crushed
But the people who never cared
Would now
Because I know
My room would lay empty
Without life
My books and art supplies
Collecting dust
Because no one can bare to walk in
Even though I hear my thoughts
Telling me
Everyone would miss me
I can hear the thoughts
Screaming
Die
Kill yourself louder