Museo Ng Manunulat

When I come home

It's been three years, four months, two days, fourteen hours and fifteen minutes until today. I am wearing my own tux as I enter the house of God. An extraordinary home which will unite us into a vow which we will never break; by the girl whom I love.

It all started with a look, a stare, a smile, a laugh. It all started with the sparks. A simple hi ignited a fire beneath my skin. It was just a simple hi, but it feels like every word in an Oxford Dictionary couldn't even tell me what I am feeling while I am witnessing the movement of your lips. It was... magical.

It then continued to be someone like your friend to me. You're the one who witnessed my weird laughs when I hear a corny joke.  You're the one who is with me when I tried to recreate a nonsense joke (and you would just blankly stare at me). And I'm the one who witnessed your tears when someone is insulting how ugly you are. I'm the one who witnessed your cries when no one is around you except me. Except me. So listen, I know you are startled the first time you heard these words for me, but I'm not taking it back, even today. Believe me...

You are beautiful

It then grew as to something unexplainable. As on every day that passes by, not a second is you not with me, nor me not with you. We are in a same home, the same place, the same gigs, the same time. It was a best friend's thing if you may ask. We are like Peter Pan and Wendy, flying happily onto the atmosphere like we never cared about anyone, and in fact, we really did. We are who we are.

The flowers then regenerated into something more special, something as red as the cheeks of yours when you smile. Something as precious as your eyes when they curve as you laugh. Something as beautiful as you. Indeed you are beautiful and without I doubt, even the gardens grew across the boundaries I wouldn't care. As long as you hear me, you heard my voice. The flowers grew to red roses and it was screaming...

I LOVE YOU

It then created a castle above the hill which the princess is waiting for her prince. But to get a hold onto the hands of the princess, a dragon, a witch, the elves, the fire, the death, all of the hardest things would make the prince struggle harder. He was still paving the road to his princess when a dragon spew fire onto him, a witch cursed him, the elves threw rocks, death knocked him down. But her face was on his mind all the time, so he was invincible! And as the final bricks are laid down onto the mile long road at long last. I heard the most beautiful words which you've uttered

I LOVE YOU, TOO

You and I lived happily inside the castle of love which we created, restored, furnished and now, ready to fight against the harshest reality. We are ready for the sadness, for the burning of my love will keep you away from the freezing cold of sadness. You're radiating smile is always ready for the worst hailstorms my eyes could ever handle. We are the shields of each other against the outer forces.  We are the swords of each other against reality. Against jealousy, doubt, against solitude, against anything. And the magic words which will never erase our powers are always uttered by my lips...

YOU ARE, WILL, AND ALWAYS BE BEAUTIFUL

And now, after three years, four months, two days, fourteen hours and fifteen minutes and one, two, three eternities of waiting. I am here for you, to accept this vow. I am here for you to witness one of our most prestigious and magical moments of your life. I am here, now crying to see you smiling. And now I completely realized a thing which someone like me will always realize at this moment...

I'M A WASTE

I MESSED HER UP

I MESSED THINGS UP

Tears are streaming down my face as I saw her smiling, walking across the aisle, with voices of the angels sing the song of marriage with someone which will never be me.  She taught me how to love, but I thought her how to create a hurricane. She taught me how to grow, but I let her wither with sadness until a ray of sunshine touches her skin and regenerated her. She taught me everything, and I gave her nothing at all.

And now, on her last day of being someone before she become 'his one', I want to say thank you for the love, the sacrifices which you've made- which we've made. Thank you for the tears, for the smiles. And I would swear that even if it is raining in my eyes, I swore to you, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, until we are parted to death, that you're smiles will be more important than everything else. Even if I became the cause of your downfall, I would swear I would rise you up again.

And now, now she's 'his one'. I would gradually come back home. And when I come back home, I would remember everything. So when I come home, I would end every tears and, when I come home, i would cherish the first moment of us, which would be the last memory for me.