God Sent

2- Never Even Made the Cut

"I need to go to bed" Nova mumbles walking into my small apartment, "I don't feel good" she goes on disappearing into my dark hallway.

I sign and sit at my kitchen table, the rest of the boy's crowd around my living room and continue their movie marathon, the television on low. I study each and everyone of them, I've known these guys for years, we've been through it all, maybe its time to start opening up to them again.

"Coffee?"

"Oh God please" I ask as my brother chuckles and puts the coffee pot on the stove.

"So now that I have you here drunk, how are you?" he asks sitting next to me, plate of cookies in his hand. I chuckle and take one.

"I'm sorry sober me can't talk to you like before" I state taking a bite.

"I know Z, what happened? We were so close."

"Cameron happened" I stated quietly, at that Jai glanced over at our table, catching my eye he got up and walked over to the kitchen.

Taking in a breath I meet my brother's eyes, "I love you Z, okay? I know I get busy with work and filming but I'm always here for you."

I smile at him and nod my head, my attention turns to the kitchen where I see Jai making toast, I smile and turn away. Lincoln staring at me, "I think you should let someone else other than blondie pick your guys" he whispers tilting his head towards Jai.

My eyes go wide and my mouth drops, "Are you kidding he's my best friend, he's like my brother you creep."

"You didn't see him like that back in high school."

"More like middle school and I was young okay, cut me some slack" I say, embarrassed of my days I used to crush on him, I used to think he was the one...maybe still do... But of course he never paid any attention to his best mate's little sister, especially when he had his dream girl right under his arm.

"Your toast madam" Jai says setting the plate in front of me, thanking him I watch him sit back down in the living room.

I won't go back to that Link, he hurt me, I was always his second best.

Obviously not voicing it, Lincoln doesn't know the whole story, not even Nova, she knows bits and pieces. No one other than the famous Jai Brooks knows how bad he hurt me, he regrets it, I know that much, but I also know that if he had the chance he'd do it again.

xxx

I wake up to the softness of the sunlight pouring into my room, stretching I reach for my phone and see the time, eleven forty-two. I look over at Nova and find her sound asleep, I decide to hop in the shower and get dressed, putting on black skinnies a yellow t-shirt and a pair of black original high-top converse.

"Morning" Nova greets as I walk out of my closet.

"Hi sunshine, I was thinking brunch at Lolo's and a day at the mall?" I ask as she smiles wide sitting up in bed.

"All I heard from that was mimosas."

"No, Nov" I laugh as she walks into my restroom to get ready, I walk out of my room and into the living room, I was surprised to find it clean, as if a bunch of smelly dudes didn't occupy it the night before.

Walking into the kitchen I find a note, Lincoln's messy hand writing sprawled across it.

Went down to Venice to play a bit, some of the boys came with me. Dinner at our house tonight, will be making your favorite!