I Am Not Ready To... (GirlxGirl)

Love should come from the heart

Rey POV

I was speechless I didn't know what to say I just looked at him lost for words "I I... That is not true I lo.. love him" I said looking down I know that i don't love him I just needed to make him believe me because everyone is expecting us to be the cutest couple in school "Don't worry I won't say anything it shows that you are not in love with him most people know it but doesn't say anything" he was right lately I didn't put much affort in making it look like I am in love "Yeah you are right I don't love him we are together because everyone is expecting us to be together" "that is the worst excuse to be with someone" he smiled at me "Yeah it sucks" I laughed making him laugh as well. The waiter come and bring our lunch brekfest "Enjoy" "Thanks" we both said and dig in our food.

After we were done and we payed we go out the day was beautiful "It's beautiful right now. Wish i could walk around for hours" he said looking up in the sky "We can i mean she still hasn't wake up and the doctors will call us if she does. So let's walk for a while and than we will go back to the hospital" he looked at me for couple of minutes "Yeah you are right let's go". We stared walking towards the park.

"So how long do you know Alex?" "Since we were 11" "Wow that's long. If you don't mind me asking how did you meet?" "That's a long story you sure you want to hear it?" "Yeah" "Okay then.... Well first i am gonna tell you about her. She started working in the military when she was 8 years old but she has grown up in it because she was left in front of the military base when she was baby so they took her in and raised her to be the best killer the world knows. Her first mission was what made her famous the legend says she killed 50 people and she was only 9 years old. But we met after two years well i was kidnapped when i was 11 by a serial killer. The FBI meant to send her in but she was kidnapped too and no one know where we were. So one day when we were there one  of his people was going to beat me up before she stood in front of be and took the beating, after that they beat her up every day for six weeks that's when the FBI and the military found us. He got away but before he left he stab her in the chest but even then she helped getting everyone out. After she was in coma for about six months and i kept on visiting her so when she woke up we becamed best friends. And when i was 14 i joined too" "wow you were young when you joined but her it's wow I mean I grow up in it too because of my father we would move a lot I had so many rules to follow to always be this perfect girl and I thought that was hard because my father wouldn't let me act up but for her it must has been so hard" "Well she never talks about how it's for her but you could always try and talk with her, who knows maybe she will tell you" he said as we stopped walking to sit on one of the benchs "Well for now all I want is to be her friend I know that my friends bully her and I am sorry I never did anything but as soon as I see them I will tell them to stop" "About that she could easily beat them up but she doesn't get into fights with people she thinks are not worth it" "I understand but still why would she take all that crap" he thought for couple of minutes and as good as I am at reading people faces I can't read his at all. He finally looked at me his face still unreadable "No one knows why she takes all of that crap. When we ask her she always give us the same reason, she says that she is better than them she says that even after high school she will be better because she already has a future" I looked at the sky taking everything he told me so far 'her live is so hard. No wonder why she only hangs out with Shawn but I really want to be her friend she is amazing and so beautiful, I could get lost in her green eyes that reminds me of the ocean, her long hair that I want to get my hands in her lips always looking ready to be kissed. Ugh no don't think like that you have a boyfriend you are straight, straight like a pole' I looked at Shawn and he was already looking at me "What is bothering you?" "I it's nothing I was just thinking about what you told me but also about my boyfriend" he put his hand on my shoulder and give me this encouraging smile and said with the sweetest voice "I know it's your decision on what you are going to do with your boyfriend but all I have to say is, love should come from your heart not from some thought of being popular or cute" I know he is right but I don't want to lose my friends I can't lose them not for anything "That's not the thought I mean that's how it started but now I am afraid I will lose my friends" I said and looked down "Why would you lose them?" I hesitated to look up but when I did he had this sad smile on his face "Because they were his friends first. If I break up with him they will be on his side and I will lose them and they are the only one I have" I want to cry this is my sad truth and no one can change it "That's not true you have me and if you try you can have her too I mean you won't need to try that hard you already have a place in her heart" the last part he said it in a whisper but I still heard it "What do you mean I have a place on her heart?" he smiled at me "You will find out one day" his smile grow bigger when he saw how confused I was "But as I was saying you have us so any time you want a company or just someone to talk to without getting judged give us a call" this time I could read his face he was telling me the truth "Thank you and same goes for you" he smiled and looked at the sky for couple of seconds I was looking at his face and all I could think was 'I have friend and he won't judge he doesn't hang out because of my father he is hanging out with me because he want to'.

After ten minutes or so he finally looked away from the sky "Let's go back I have to be at the hospital tonight" "Yeah let's go I need to go home anyway". After that we didn't talk at all the whole way to the hospital was silent but it wasn't awkward one it was comfortable and for the first time I feel like myself.