I Am Not Ready To... (GirlxGirl)

Stay

Alex P.O.V

I was awake for the past 24 hours and I am already so bored from this hospital but the doctors keep on telling me I cant leave for the next two days so they can monitor me 'Bullshit' was the only though I had before turning the tv on so I wouldn't  gotten even more angry. I kept on looking for some drama show but nothing came up, mumbling curse words under my breath I heard the door open, revealing my father "Hello how are you today?" He asked, maybe he isnt the most warm person ans often is very strict with me I know he loves me very much and that he will be always here to help me with no matter what it is, "Hiii thank you for coming i am dying here" i hurriedly said, being very thankful I am being saved my this boredom "What happened? You okay? Do I need to call the doctors?!" He asked me questions after questions worry shown on him. "No I meant from boredom" I giggled at him, I took his arm and squeezed it showing him I am thankful he cares for me "IF YOU WERENT HURT I WOULD OF SLAP YOU HARD" he yelled at me with his general voice, something he only uses when I am in trouble or when he is at work "sorry" I tried to keep a straight face, showing him I am truly sorry but I failed, laughter exploding from me I started to laugh. My father stayed the same, mumbling words, looking very scary but I could also see how his face soften when he saw me laugh.

"I talked to the bosses and asked them to give you a vacation". After I calmed down, me and my father we talked for a bit, him making sure I am okay and me asking about my mother when he went silence before he told me the real reason he is here in a work day.  "We all dicaded that you need a break. For the next two months you will be off duty, focusing on your studies and your future" my father finished, I looked at him, not knowing what to say, I know I need a break I am tired of this life style and I am only 17 but at the same time I dont have a life, I dont know anything except to do my job. "Are you sure? I dont want to cause problems with the boses" I kept on asking questions, hopefully this can get him to change his mind "Yes I am sure and for the next two months I dont want to see your face in my base" he sternly said, that moment I knew I lost the battle I wasnt even a part of.

My father left after a while, we didnt talk much after what he said, I really dont know how I will deal with this. Being in the military for so long it comes with many mental illnesses, one that I have struggled my whole life it has been social anxiety and anxiety in general. I dont like  changes in my personal life, making new friends or just ordering food on the phone can make me have a panic attack, thinking I sound weird, my voice is too horse. I know I have been a solider and that comes with many undercover missions but what I have always done is make up a character in my head and pretend I am them and not myself witch has always been successful and has led me to be the top soldier in my base. Now that I am facing so many new changes I dont think I will deal mentally good with it.

"Maybe life should be about more than just serving"

I am watching my favourite show The 100, I have watched only 3 seasons of it, getting my favourite character killed wasnt my favourite thing so I haven't watched it ever since than and I know I will never finish it, call me crazy but the pain is too much for me to continue without her in the show. Knowing how the 3rd season ends I start to think about this words more than I have ever thought. 'What if Clarke is right? Being only in the military for my whole life I never had the time to do what I love or like, maybe I can get a hobby or read a book again, something I havent done in years. I lie down on my pillow, thinking that maybe it isnt the worst thing my father did'. I drifted off off to sleep as soon as I touched the pillow.

Rey P.O.V

I heard my alarm clock, turning around a smash my hand on it to turn it off, not opening my eyes I kept on lying on my bed. After a while i realized i need to get up before i am late for school, I swing my legs over my bed but my feet weren't touching the what its supposed to be a cold floor rather something warm and soft...not something someone 'shit' 'fuck' I curse myself as I pick up my feet, turning on the other side of the bed where Kate wasnt lying on the floor. Yesterday night after we had dinner we decided she would sleep in my house as I needed help to break up with Tom as well, which was very difficult as I forgot there was a party going on and cancelling and breaking up was something I never sign up for.

I crunched down and started to wake up Kate, who was a very heavy sleeper. She pushed my hands off of her mumbling 'later' under her sleepy breath not bothering to even open her eyes to see who it is. I knew that even if I kept on calling her name or shaking her she wouldnt wake up so I took what I saw as the last resort, water. I walked in the bathroom, filling up a cup with water I walked towards Mate again. Pouring little water on her, being careful to not pour too much witch can cause a lot of problems I dont want to deal with in the morning, she jumped out of the floor, the same one I pushed her to sleep on yesterday after we fought and I won, yes my bed has room for two but what's the fun when I can have the whole bad for myself and plus tease her to sleep on the floor.

Kate was finally ready, getting in the car to start out journey towards the school she was still half asleep and mumbling how she hates me or something, I didnt bother to listen to what she said. I was driving towards the school listening to the newest song, one.of my favourites "How you like that by Blackpink" a group that has helped me a lot, resently I have been watching them and I have connected with the girls so much that they have though me a lot. This amazing, lovable ladies have showed me it's okay to be myself, from Jisoo representing my weird humor and showing me that friends and people will stick by side even if I am that way To Jennie and Rosè showing me that I can be fierce, professional, but be funny, cute, goofy at the same time. Lisa our amazing maknae showing me that I can be strict, sexy, fierce and confident and yet again be childish, cute, evil. I love this girls and even if it's been only hours since my break up with Tom I can already say I am happier and more free than I have been in god knows how long. Zoning off I didnt realized we are in front of the school, I parked the car and Kate left the car, shutting the door a little bit too hard. I didnt chase after her but rather walked somewhere that will help her.

After ten minutes I was finally in front of the lockers, I saw the girls around them talking about something, when I got closer they went silent 'weird', despite my thoughts I didnt say anything "Hey girls" I smiled to them but they only said stiff 'hi's' some smiled awkwardly to me some didnt even bother to do it "Kate I am sorry  about earlier I didnt mean it so here is some food" I gave her a small sandwich I bought from the cafeteria and gave it to her, alongside with a chocolate milk she loves. She saw what I was holding taking them in her hands she didnt say anything at first only started at them without saying a word, thinking she was gonna return them I was surprised and shocked when she actually hugged me "Thank you I forgive you!!" She screamed as she started to jump up and down. She was like a kid in her heart, doing everything she set her mind to she never apologised to anyone, something I need to learn from her. I smiled at her warmly "Shell we go to class than?" I asked her my smile growing bigger, she didn't answer me rather shook her head up and down saying yes eagerly "Ladies are you comin?" Remembering the other girls who were standing around us quietly all this time I ask them despite the not so warm welcome they gave me "Uh...no we-" "Gotta finish something before" Stella and Ariana quickly said, seeing the lies through their teeth I didnt say anything rather than gave them a small okay and hooked my hand around Kate's, walking towards put class together