I Am Not Ready To... (GirlxGirl)

Together till the end

Rey P.O.V

When I and Shawn entered the room, we felt their awkwardness, but it was more than just them not knowing each other. 'Did something happen between them?'.
"Here is your food Alex" Shawn said as he dropped off the plastic bag in front of Alex "We bought drinks for everyone" I smiled at the two girls, making a mental note to ask Kate of something happened later. I handed Alex orange juice as she cant drink anything else, and the two coffees to  Kate and Shawn while I took my tea out if the cup holder. "Of anyone wants to eat feel free this is too much food for only me" Alex said offering us food witch everyone said no to "You need to eat a lot to get strong A so shut up and eat" said Shawn sternly, Alex only rolled her eyes mumbling something we couldn't hear. I let a small laugh at the the girl in front of me, "Cute".

Alex P.O.V

As I was mocking Shawn something we do to each other every since we met I heard Rey's small cute she let, I felt warmth spread throughout my whole body. I put my head down, continuing to eat not daring show Shawn she has an affect on me.

After 20 minutes I was finally done with eating, zoning out I didnt know what they were talking about "Hey i was five" I heard Shawn say, the two girls were laughing so hard. I looked at them confused "Oh I see you werent listening to us" Shawn looked at me with a knowing face, I often zoned out, something everyone is familiar with. "Sorry" I gave them an apologetic smile, the akward atmosphere is back. "No worries" Rey smiled at me "He was just telling us how he embarrassed himself in front of his class by peeing his pants on his school trip" everyone started to laugh I joint this time too remembering the story she was talking about. "Oh that gold nugget" I said while laughing, my back started to hurt, trying to not show that to anyone I calmed down.

The four of us talked for an hour, sharing stories from our childhoods, mostly them I dont talk about my childhood much, mostly because I dont remember much from it. We talked and started to bond more with each other, I smiled, real one, a lot and it's been a while since I have done that.

The girls left, leaving me and Shawn alone. I looked at him, I could see he havent slept in days, and if he did it was bearly few hours. "Shawn" I softly said his name "hm" he didnt bother to look at me his eyes were closed "Go home" he quickly opened his eyes when he heard me "No" was all he said, determination written in his voice "Yes. You can bearly keep your eyes open, I am fine now go home" my voice was getting louder and louder "No I am fine as well i-" he started to say beofre I cut him off "No you aren't, I can see you are tired I am fine nothing will happen to me and if it does than the doctors or my perents will call you. Go home" this time I yelled at him. He opened his mouth to protest "Go home this is an order" I yelled at him again, authority written in my voice, something he cant go against no matter how much he wants. He rolled his eyes but got up anyway, he got his stuff but still didnt leave the room only looked at me "Call me if you need anything I will come no matter what, and I will visit you in the morning before school" he said, I could see his is worried for me. I looked at him with a sympathetic smile "Yes i will" it's all i said before i lied down. I closed my eyes, after what seemed five minutes I heard the door open and close, he finally left. Thinking about today and everything that happened i slowly drifted to sleep.

Rey P.O.V

I and Kate didnt talk the whole way out of the hospital. We walked into silence, I keep glancing at her but I couldnt read her face, she seemed zoned out. While waiting for the taxi to come I couldn't bare the killing silence "Whatcha thinking about?" I asked her as i looked into her face, trying to see something that will tell me how she is really feeling about today, but I couldn't "Nothing" she simply answered me, giving me a small very fake smile I only hummed, putting g my head down i thought she noticed how i looked at Alex, or maybe she doesnt like her. Thousand of thoughts kept driving me crazy when I suddenly heard her voice "Can we talk at your place?" I was shocked to say at least but also very terrified, I didnt know what could we talk about and that made me nervous. I always want to know what will happen before hand, that way my anxiety wont be as high. I only nodded not trusting my voice from how nervous I was.

After ten minutes we came to a stop in front of my house, I saw that my father wasnt home as his car wasnt in the driveway. After we paid we went towards my house, I was getting more nervous as we walked closer. Once at home I saw my mum cooking in the kitchen "Mum me and Kate will be upstairs!" I yelled to get her attention "Okay honey both of you come for dinner in an hour" my mum yelled at us while we walked upstairs. Shakingly I opened the door of my room, Kate still didnt say a word. We sat down on my bed, still not talking. After a while I broke the silence "So?" I asked her, slowly putting my head up, looking at her "Are you friends with her? How long?" She asked me, I was taken a back, not knowing what to answer her. 'Are we friends?' I asked myself, I didnt had an answer for that question. "Yes we are and only for this past day I guess" I found myself answering her questions. Kate only hummed not saying g anything for a while, again. "I want to say sorry" I looked at Kate confused "Tom always bullied her and we all stood and did nothing. We never even asked why he does that, we are as much of bullies as he is" she said I could see hurt and anger in her. She was right we never did anything and i need to apologise to Alex for that, i didnt even think of that i was too focus on her being awake and getting to know her more. "You are right. We did nothing and as we are talking about Tom. I will break up with his tonight " I told her what I planned today, I was gonna call him and break up. It's more than just not loving him anymore he isnt a good person anymore and everyone can see that just no one was talking about it because he is popular. "Finally" she said while laughing I look at her shock why she would say this "What?" She saw how I was looking at her "you thought I didnt notice you dont love him anymore? That you only keep up with his i still dont know why would you do that" she explained herself. My eyes got teary I didnt know she would notice something like this. I always thought they all hang out with me because of him. That they arent actually my friends and they didnt care to notice something is wrong with me. I hugged her, tears falling down my face ending on her shirt. "What's wrong why you crying?" She ask me filled with concern and worry, making me hug her tighter.

After few minutes I was calm enough to explain how I felt. She looked at me hurt evident on her face. "Again sorry I made you feel like you are my friend only because of him. But that's not true. Yes we met because of him but I love you for who you are you are my best friend" once again we hugged each other "Thank you" I kept on repeating myself while smiling from ear to ear "hush" she only said as we started to laugh. Lying on the bed I kept on thinking how grateful I am for her. "Also one more thing" she didnt even look at me as she spoke "Beofre we go downstairs for dinner" I totally forgot about that as how happy I am. "When are you gonna tell Alex you like her?" She asked me as she got up from them bed walking towards the door "W-hat...I dont like her" I started to shudder as I denied I like her, I started to panic as to where Kate knows "Dont worry I support you and plus you two would make a great couple" she said to me I smiled at her and hugged her again "Thank you" when I let go of her the smile I had vanished of my face "also I domt like her" I kept on saying "Yes and I am gay as well" I looked at her more confused then every "I didnt know you were gay" suddenly she started to laugh so hard she placed her hand around her stomach preventing it from hurting "I was stating impossible facts" she told me after she called down a bit. I slapped her for few times before I walked out of the room "You coming?" I asked her annoyed and embarrassed. As I walked downstairs I still could hear her laugh.