Jeon Jungkook
It's been a week had passed before I had a courage again to talk to Lisa. I didn't message her at all coz I don't want her to get uncomfortable with me. I greeted her every morning at school but I only received a cold shoulder. I can tolerate that, because first we aren't friends even our friends were close to both me and her but still I'm trying to have her attention. I don't want to pressure her to something she isn't comfortable. I know everything takes time and I'm willing to wait. I am just glad that I can be around her and of course together with my friends coz I can't be with her alone.
BUT there's something I noticed when the day and time passes. I noticed that she was avoiding me, it wasn't like before something different. I knew it coz I always pay attention to her. Everytime we crossed paths she'll turn around and walked on the other way. During lunch she'll get her own food and I knew that she doesn't like queueing on the line. Ate her food faster then will leave early. She will went straight home refusing to hangout with us. But today she couldn't refuse because Jisoo personally invite her to her birthday and Lisa has a soft spot to her. Maybe, just maybe I could talk to her coz I don't get it, why she can be close with Jimin and Taehyung but not with me, she's even close with my other male friends. I'm not dumb she can talk with my circle of friends but not me? I badly want her reason.
Jisoo's bday held in her house. Her visitors were us only. An hour had passed Lisa still isn't here. Does her parents forbid her? I should have told Rose. I scanned the room and saw Rose with Jennie. I was about to go to her when Jisoo suddenly shouts.
"Lisayah!" she shouted for all the people hear her. I turned to the doorway and saw her hugging Jisoo.
"You're late" she slapped her in the arm
"I'm sorry" she apologize with her puppy eyes.
Soon Rose and Jennie coming to them. They walked in the living room. One by one my brothers were sitting on the couch and here I am still standing feels like my feet glued to the floor.
"Why are you still standing here JK" Hobi asked patting my shoulder then joined them to the living area. I was hesitating whether to go there or not. I cleared my mind and pulled my asses to the near couch a bit far to her.
"Lis you're the only one we are waiting before we start the party" Jin said "and that bday girl won't let us eat" he whined. Laughter heard in the room.
"You should have start the party. What if I didn't come?" She said in a guiltu tone.
"Then they will not eat" Jisoo blabbered like she was serious about it.
"Then why invites us?" Namjoon asked with his eyebrow raise.
"For me to starve you people" namjoon shakes his head disbelieving.
That's why I love this people. They are crackheads. The room filled with laughters. Each and everyone were chatting. I kept glancing on her looking for a right time to talk to her. After we ate, they decided to do karaoke. And now the room is filled of drunkens and with wannabe singers. Lels, just kidding they are great singers and still sobber. I saw Lisa went outside, in the garden area and that's my cue. I took the opportunity to stood up and followed her.
"Aren't you allowed to drink?" I asked startling her. She faced me with widen eyes then back to blank face.
"Don't you want to sing? Maybe you have a good voice" I kept talking but she wasn't responding.
"Lisa—" I stopped when she was about to walk away but I held her wrist. She glared at me. "Why, why are you avoiding me?" I courageously asked releasing my hold to her wrist and she faced me.
"Because I hate you" she said without remorse.
"Why do you hate me?" I asked sadly staring to her trying to read her.
"I have reasons" she plainly uttered.
"Maybe I deserve to know those reasons"
"No need"
"I need to know coz I don't understand why its only me you're avoiding, you can freely talk with them but why not the same with me?" I lashed out
"Can't I choose who I wanted to mingle with?" She asked raising her eyebrow
"You— you can" I was caught off guard. "Jus—t tell me why do you hate me"
"I hate you because you are a jerk, you're a playboy and you're an asshole" she said with a stern voice and oh! It hurts. I know I'm not that kind of guy but I couldn't explain myself and right her.
"Can't I change the way you look at me?" Her eyes widen, maybe she's not believing I'm making fool of myself.
"What do I have to do for you to not hate me?" Do I look desperate? Maybe I am.
"You don't have to do anything because nothing will change. I even hate your existence" and that's shuts me up. I stucked my tounge to my left mouth preventing my tears to run down. I put my hands on my pocket. There's silence between us. I deep sighed and looked at her.
"I just wanted to be friends with you but I get it now, I don't have a chance coz you already made up your mind" I turned my face away from her I don't want her to see me crying. She might thought I am pathetic.
"Just stay away from me" she uttered
"I will" and I left. A tear fell down on my heated face. I went outside the house not saying goodbye to them. I don't want to ruin their little party. I was hurt. I didn't know that she hates me that much. I was such a fool. Why do I have to like a girl who loathe me? I stayed on the car for a while, recalling what she said. I chuckled and wiped my tears then drove away.
