Lalisa Manoban
I was nervous. I have no idea how to talk to him. Should I just message him? No, Lisa, you should do it in person, face to face. My conscience said and that made feel anxious. He'll be weirded out if I suddenly talk to him. Maybe, I'll let is pass and my conscience bugged me again telling that I should do it, now or never.
Something was different. The school aura was gloomy. It wasn't the usual noisy. I stepped on my room and the first thing I did was find him but no Jungkook, maybe he's late but wait my friends weren't here too. Where are they? The whole class was veiled with silence. I'm getting curious. Then my professor came still my friends and him weren't around.
"Before we start the class let us give a minute of prayer to your fellow classmate Jeon Jungkook" my professor said and it ringed my ears. WHAT?!! my eyes widen. What happened to him? Was it bad? I felt crying and it made me feel more anxious. I badly wanted to know what happened to him. Was that the reason why my Taehyung, Jimin and Rosie were MIA. My focus wasn't in class but to the boy whom I hurted. I need to get outta here. When the class ended I asked one of classmate to what happened to Jungkook and to what she said it breaks my heart. "Jungkook is in coma" the only phrase stucked on my mind. I ran. Ran to nowhere. I have to call Rose. I looked for my phone but it wasn't on my bag. Why now? I went home quickly and looked for my phone. I found it under my pillow with died battery. For real? The badluck was on me today. I charged it. Then a lot of miscalled from Rose and messages.
"Lis, where are you?"
"Lis please answer my calls"
"I need you, we need you"
"Jungkook 😭"
I didn't finished her messages and call her real quick then she answer right away.
"Hey, Rosie. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I just found out today. Where are you?" I said crying. She answered sniffing. I felt the sadness in her voice. As we ended the call, I hopped on my car and went to the hospital he was charged.
I gulped hard as I entered on his ward. I saw Rose sitting on a couch with Jimin caressing her back and Taehyung sitted on a stool beside Jungkook's bed. They wasn't aware of my entry of appearance. A tear escaped on my eyes and a light sobbed when I saw him head bandage. That's when their heads turned to me when I made a sound. I put my hands on my mouth preventing the sob to not make louder. Rose immediately stood up and hugged me. We both cried.
I was still quiet after they told me what happened but we're all calm. Jimin and Taehyung left to bought us food. My guiltiness couldn't contain anymore so I decided to tell Rose what's bugging me.
"Rose, I have a confession" she looked at me attentively and her eyes told me to says it. I told her all the things happened between me and Jungkook. And the reason why I did terrible thing to him. Today, its not a secret anymore to Rose that I like him— that I like Jungkook. I realized it more when I saw him in that situation.
"And now I felt guilty. I felt that I did this to him" I cried again. She hugs me.
"No, Lisa its not your fault. You're just protecting your heart." Rose tried so hard to calm me. "Hmm.. May I ask, is this your first time. I mean to like someone?" She hesitantly asked and I nodded shyly. She gasped, shocked to the news.
"But I don't think he will like me. You know I always says harsh words to him. I hurt him with my words and actions" I said disappointed with myself.
"Don't overthink Lis, you'll never know. Jungkook is actually a good guy. He is just misunderstood." I hummed.
"Hmm... By the way Where are his parents?"
"They haven't been here" Rose said with a bit disappointed. And that shocks me.
"Where are they?"
"Out of the country. Jimin informed them what happened to Jungkook but they only sent Mr. Yang to took care of JK and settled things in the hospital"
"What?! There son was in critical condition and that's their response. And who's Mr. Yang" I asked angrily. Does they care? They should be here not some people.
"Mr. Yang is JK's right hand. He's responsible for JK. Mr. Yang is the acting head of their house. Well, his family is kind of complicated. I remember that Kook never celebrate his birthday with his parents because they're always on abroad doing business of course, that's their reason. He didn't tell us when is his birthday so Tae and Jim finds it out, so when we we're going to surprise him, he's missing in action, in short, he went away without us knowing then we observed everytime his birthday comes, he's in MIA" Rose storytelled. I never knew that this guy laying on bed was unlucky with his family. Well because you avoid him and never try to know him. Sure, his story saddened me and I felt more guilty.
"We never see him sad because he concealed until you happened. I didn't have a slightest idea that you're the reason BUT Lis, don't feel guilty okay" she scold me with her last words coz she saw the long face I emmited.
"You can't blame me for being guilty Rosie. I'm really feel sorry. I— I just wanted him to wake up." I looked at him.
They already went home and I stayed. I told them that I will go home late. I already told my Dad what happened to Jungkook and he let me stay for awhile. I sat down beside him on his bed.
"Hi" I greeted him. Do I look like crazy? trying to talk to a sleeping person? I chuckled inside my head.
"I'm sorry. You know I'm planning to apologize to you in person. Now I'm doing it face to face but you're unconscious. Well, I will take the opportunity because I don't think I can do it with you conscious." I took a moment before I spoke again. Reminiscing the things I've done, I didn't felt the tear fell through my cheeks.
"I'm so sorry Ju-jungkook. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm just a coward to face my feelings for you that's why I tried to avoid you but you always on my way. Its hard for me when you're around my proximity and that's the reason I made you stay away coz I don't want to hurt you more. Jungkook I hope you'll forgive me. Please wake up. Your friends are waiting for you. And I do really hope you still want to be friends with me" I said trying not to sob and held his hand.
"Please wake up. No, you have to wake up"
